It seems like a vast amount of my mental energies are spent trying to get myself psyched up to go play with some paint. I procrastinate, dither, stall, make excuses,eat chocolate  and do laundry, rather than sit down and make a few watercolors. I'm not sure why I do all these things instead of just having some fun dabbing pigment around with paintbrushes. I did have a goal in mind today however. I wanted to just make some small paintings to attach to blank cards so I could mail them off when I want to. This I did. I may ever be just a childlike watercolor artist. I'm trying to embrace this about myself. And be a grown up about it. (You do realize what you just said is contradictory in nature, do you not?) Yeah. I'm trying to deal with this part of myself too. (Good luck with that.) Thank you.