D'vorahDavida
Yetzirah

Qualudes and Thorazine
Sat Mar 20 2004


I am doing the "jump up and run around" routine again today. I can't seem to sit still or to focus very well on a certain task. I do a little here, a little there. I write, I go outside, I come back in. Pick some flowers, put them in a vase, go back outside. Get some chicken out of the freezer to thaw. Go outside. Do a little housework. Check my email. Get up, make a phone call. Come back in here and write a few sentences. Get up for some water. Go outside. Mail some letters. Well, they are not letters. I have decided to mail back all those credit card offers to the senders. I rip off our name and address and stuff everything back into the "no postage necessary" envelope and send 'em on their way. Sometimes when I am feeling particularly testy, I fold up the outer envelope that the whole mess came in and mail that back too.

I am dizzy from running around my own house. I think I need a Qualude or something. Is that how you spell that? Maybe they don't even make those anymore. I used to hear about them in the 60's. Seems they were to calm you down, or were they sleeping pills? Geeze. Don't come to me for pharmaceutical advice okay? I can just see it.... You have a headache? Here try this Thorazine.

Did I ever tell you I worked in a psychiatric ward many years ago? Well I did, and it was fascinating. Come to think of it, I would fit right in now. I could be this lady:

Scribble Queen

Only more manic. Less serene. Kinda nervous and edgy. With a little bit of paranoia. . . just for fun.

Okay, I'm done. I gotta go outside.

(Why, praytell?)

Dunno. Just gotta go outside.


6 Comments
  • From:
    Antigone (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Mar 19 2004
    I loved this entry! lol!
  • From:
    MagicWhiskey (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Mar 19 2004
    Dammit I got tired from reading the first paragraph. You need one of my lessons in oozing.
  • From:
    RealmOfRachel (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Mar 19 2004
    I understand the symptoms too well. If you find the cure please let me know. As to the credit chasers I admire your tenacity- that'll teach em!

    Hugs
    Rachel xxxx
    PS Thanks for the well wishes
  • From:
    Bookworm (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Mar 20 2004
    I don't think you need to take anything. Go with the feeling when you have energy to burn. It's not so unusual to feel like that. It shows you're alive. ;-)
  • From:
    Becoming (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Mar 20 2004
    Gimme some Ludes, man. I've heard of them too but have no clue what they do for you. I guess I can consider myself lucky that I wasn't exposed to more than pot in my younger years.

    I read about your day and my thoughts were a) Yay, flowers! and b) how nice not to have to be on a restricted schedule so that you can alway yourself to do whatever your spirit wills. Heaven! Not that you don't have responsibilities and timeframes, but you can direct your own days.

    Do you think it's simply spring making you this way? It was such a gorgeous day today outside it made me want to bounce around with joy myself.

    Now, anxiety, that's another story . . . maybe too much caffiene?

    Have a great weekend, and enjoy those flowers. *smile*
  • From:
    Becoming (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Mar 20 2004
    alway - allow

    I should a) read through what I write before I press 'the button', c) maybe not comment at 2:30 a.m.? and c) stop doing this a, b, c stuff. *smile*