I’m consoling myself with these little things like a child comforts himself by sucking his thumb. It is true, on some level, I am curled up sucking my thumb.
I have been thinking about writing from the little desk in the cupboard, but I’m afraid if I go in there, I won’t come out.
I am propped up in bed and the comforting and sensible hour of 8:00 pm. This DOES make sense for someone who woke up at 4:00am in the morning. My husband said I look “Done”…. Stick a fork in me, I’m done.” (Isn’t he sweet?)
Writing has a calming effect and in case that doesn’t work, I have my trusty crossword puzzle book waiting in the wings.
I am seriously thinking about taking a journal to work with me. I’m nervous about all the loose papers I write on when I’m there maybe getting inadvertently left behind. As it is, I have been scribbling madly on some scrap and wadding it up and stuffing it into my purse. But the other day, I got interrupted and left one lying on my desk while I was away…. Oh dear. Anyway, I will have to look and see what I have in the way of a small book to write in. BUT it seems a little psychotic to then have 5 journals going at one time. At least 4 journals could be explained Kabbalistically as having one for each of the four worlds. But 5 , well, 5 just sounds psychotic, that’s all.
But you wait, I’ll probably do it….
I have an idea for an essay in mind, but need some serious alone time to get to it. Not interruptions. No possible interruptions. And no pressing household chores to distract me, or worries about work. I need to clear the decks and work seriously on it for a whole day.
That day will only come after September 30th.
Oh yeah, I have been meaning to tell you, my Dad sent me an email about the fact that the planet Mars is as close to earth as it has ever been or some such thing. And it will be a long time till it happens like this again. You can see it right now in the eastern sky early in the evening. It is a pretty good size too. You can’t miss it. It’s the orange one. Just thought you might like to know. Although, I don’t know about our southern hemisphere friends. Can you see it too? Don’t know. Anyway, it was pretty impressive here tonight. I think Venus has seemed that large to me before, of course it shines white, and this one is definitely orange.