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Self Doubt Comes To Visit
Sat Aug 28 2004


I've been fretting about it for days and days, keeping it to myself, but I just have to admit it here. This blog has become desperately dull and mundane of late and I apologize. But what can I tell you, all my creative juices are getting sucked up by the novel re-write and Weblog Reviews.

I especially feel my recent inadequacies when I read some clever diarist's site that I am reviewing and think.... Why can't *I* write like this person? Have I lost my muse? Will I ever be clever again? Am I doomed to dullness? Married to mediocrity? Banned from brilliance?

Ah, self doubt. Familiar foe. Pick up your stuff and get out the do'!

One bright note before I go sulk in a corner.

Yesterday evening I went out to turn on the sprinkler in the yard and paused in disbelief near the peach tree. There neatly plopped on a stepping stone was a ripe peach, flat on one side, but obviously whole and sound on the other.
I picked it up in wonder. I guess we missed one hiding in all the leaves up there.
I took it in the house and cut off the squashed bits and Hub Man and I ate it's deliciousness immediately. Oddly enough, I think it was the tastiest of all the peaches this year. It was a nice little surprise at the end of the day.

7 Comments
  • From:
    Pragmatist (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Aug 27 2004
    I bought some peaches today, but I doubt that they'll have the just-off-the-tree deliciousness. But I expect I'll enjoy them anyway.

    Don't be concerned about the creative juices. You're doing fine.

    Shalom
  • From:
    Bookworm (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Aug 28 2004
    Don't ever think your entries are dull, because they're not. Yes, at times your energy must go towards other things, but it doesn't make what you've had to say here dull. Please don't listen to self-doubt. You ought to know by now what a liar she is. ;-)
  • From:
    Allimom (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Aug 28 2004
    What a yummy surprise for you! The only surprises I find in my yard are fir cones and "gifts" from Indigo.

    I could do without the gifts personally...
    Alli
  • From:
    Ichandra (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Aug 28 2004
    mon petit gateau geek
    you are so cute you have a way of describing things that renders them magical this post really leads me to consider how the best things in life arent planned there is nothing as sweet as a sweet surprise
    a la prochaine
  • From:
    InStitches (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Aug 28 2004
    Hardly dull, but you and I both know that one cannot be witty all the time. Sometimes the creative juices just refuse to flow, but then, when least expected, something will happen or some observation will be made that gets it going again. It never ceases to amaze me.

    Don't let doubt bring you down and for pity sake, don't compare yourself to others. They probably read you and say the same thing. :)

    I have not had any fresh peaches lately, but thanks to you I am hooked on Pluots. I especially like the speckled variety called dinosaur eggs. Yummmmm......

  • From:
    RealmOfRachel (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Aug 28 2004
    You're never dull, quick lock her Inner Critic away in a sea chest until it sees sense! I know leave a trail of cookies its bound to follow them.

    In seriousness I know how you feel though, I sometimes wonder if that's why I don't write as much as I used to because I'm trying to force myself to be brilliant everytime.

    When it comes down to it this is a diary and unfortunately life can be mundane at times otherwise it'd be a novel.

    Take a hug and a mug of rosehip tea and remember to breathe you are a creative and domestic goddess repeat after me.

    Love
    R xxx
  • From:
    AQuietEvening (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Aug 30 2004
    Hmmm... and when I read your entries I think "why can't I write like that!"

    ~QE