This morning, I was sitting at the computer and it was still kinda dark in here. I finished what I was doing and got up to go in the other room. And as I turned to get out of the chair I saw an indistinct shape on the floor with white parts to it. I thought I was about to step on Robbie.
(Which I often almost did, as he would lie down someplace near without me noticing)

Turned out it was my socks and tennis shoes that I had taken off last night. It’s amazing how fast our brain works sometimes. The sequence went something like this:

Oh, watch out, Robbie is there, don’t step on him.

Robbie is back!

Oh no, that’s not Robbie.

And he’s not coming back either.

After that it’s all emotions. There were a parade of those too, but no words for them…… except these I suppose.

All this happened in a nanosecond.

I wonder what else might happen in a nanosecond? Some other good thing. Something unexpected. Something wonderful.

Maybe it’s the time of year. Maybe it’s losing Robbie. Maybe it’s just . . .
Life. But I miss having my boys near. I know, I know, they are men now, but I miss them anyway. You would not believe how far flung we are from each other. Hundreds of miles.

And Robbie is furthest away of all.

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