There has been so much for me to do. I am plain wiped out. My weekend had me running erons such as cleaning and shopping. We didn't even get a chance to do laundry. There was a few arguments between me and Michelle, but nothing major. I think she wants me to be able to talk for hours to her. At times I can, other times, I'm not sure what to say. I've said that before, but that's what is going on right now. I sometimes wish we had more things in common beside values. Hobbies are always great to talk about. We can't talk about our past because we know each other's stories. Not to mention we're so exhausted. College has drained the life out of both of us. Sometimes I think I'd be better if we didn't take the summer session.

The main positive thing is that my "project" is going better than expected. It is almost like a new hobby. I wish Michelle had something that she invested her time in and was happy about it. I think I need to take the lead and help her. We always talk about spirituality, but haven't done much about it. We helped a few bums who looked like they were truely needy and starving, but we haven't worked on our inner selves. If I can get my tired ass to church or to reading the bible, then maybe we'll feel more whole. As is, the emptiness inside is expanding.

It's so hard trying to stay positive when life wants to pull you down. I hate my job right now. I will never again get a job where the boss is "ALWAYS" watching you. I hate college professors;they're so cold. Some could give a shit if you got most of the answer and missed one small portion, they'll mark you off for the whole thing. Don't they realize that this is my life. Without a diploma I'm doomed to work in a job I resent. I will always struggle. My kids will have it really hard. I am more likely to be a victim or perpetrator of crime. There is so much at stake. Too many fuck ups and I'm doomed to be one. I swear if I make it to the top, I won't be complacent. I will be sure to work on social injustice. Damn those in power. To hell with people who have the ability to change lives and don't. I hate how people are so selfish and greedy. The funny thing is that a lot of them aren't million or billionaires. A lot of them make 60 and 70 thousand a year. They have enough to live on and more. If enough of them got together and set aside a small portion to help those who are a victim of a cold society, then everyone would be better off. We're all different versions of the same thing. We're all humans. GTG