Well, today was pretty good. Better than I had expected. That's for sure. Got the gifts I expected *chocolates and game* and some I didn't. A shirt and pants. Though they both were sizes smaller than myself, its the thought that counted. I was happy, heck, I even managed to squezze into it for them. Also got socks and some underware. Was from my grandma. I guess I forgot to factor her in. After that, I watched lil bro and sis open thier gifts. Man, they had alot. From me, my mom, my grandma, from lil bro's dad, and from big bro. As I watched them, I realized how happy they were and that brought me up. Kids have this glow in thier eyes as they are handed gifts to shred open. Then the gasps, uwws and ahhhs. At the end, all the gift wrapping all over the floor and toys divided into 2 groups. His and hers. :) Not to mention the fact that once they're all done, they rip the packages the actual toy is in and start to immediately play with them.
After a little bit of watching them, I go to my room. I put away my gifts in thier respective cabinets. Was gonna go on bed and relax when they needed some help with their gifts. I help. I was happy for them. Wasn't much thinking bout my own feelings at the time. SOme time went by and the kids go to sleep. I stay up to chat on computer. *btw, we open gifts at midnight* So I have chat with nicole. *will write about it later* Go to sleep.
Wake up and call Ray. He is happy to hear from me, I wish him a merry christmas and we talk for a bit. Eventually I get off to let big bro use the phone. I then am invited to big bro's garage. We play the games he got me. Is fun, stay there for a good while then come in. When I am in the kitchen, I notice that *gasp* my mom is cooking a christmas dinner. Roast in the oven, other food being prepared. I was happy. Especially since I really didn't expect that. After some time passes, she calls me to eat. I do, food is good. Come on and type this entry.
Wow, that went alot better than I had thought it would. I was sure just a few days ago that I'd be mopping around all day and hating christmas. I guess GOD had different plans for me. I'm thanking prayer. Cause to me, its a miracle things came together like it did. Anyways, i'm off, time gonna eat MORE food. :)
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!