Today was a VERY bad day for me. How? Well, lemme explain. Got to the college and decided to get a hot chocolate. With that, I decided that I should take my pills again. So i take out my pill ring and lo and behold, 2 bromocriptines. SO I grab on, and then empty a few of the other pills into my hand. I then take it down. So to me, no big deal.
Come about 11:30, about an hour later. That is when I was in the student center laying down and all of a sudden I feel antsy and VERY nervous. I"m like, WTF? I tell donald and he don't understand. So noon time rolls around and *gasp* JEff comes in. Invites me to lunch. OK! SO first we go sit down on some benches near a water fountain. I then start to feel VERY dizzy and walk around fast. I then go to the garbage and throw up. Tears then fall out. I throw up for atleast a whole minute. Donald and Jeff then ask if I'm ok. I tell them, um, not really. They ask if they should call hosptial. I say NO! So eventually after some sitting, I decide to go out and get lunch.
We get some pizza. Its good. All seems well. We go back to the college. Realize Jeff has to go. Start to walk him to his bus stop when we argue about some bands. He says EVERYONE knows who Ozomatli is. I"m like, "YEAH RIGHT, no one knows who they are" SO eventually he is pissed and leaves. I go to student center, lay there on the couch. April is in there and Donald gives her all the attention. I start to feel nausuous again. Then everyone ends up in there. Danielle, Eliza, Rosie, April, and Donald. All looking at some baby. For some reason, I just jumped out the couch and just left. I couldn't stand them for some reason. I go to study hall on the 3rd floor of the libary. Up there, I feel like the old me. Depressed and very resentful. Sick and having a massive headache. I want to be up there forever. THough i have to go to work. I ride there and take a nap. I wake up and go.
As I'm there, I realize I look like total crap. I go to my register and the co-worker that offered me a ride last time *her name is Love* asked me if I was ok. I tell her no. She then asks if I'm coming off some drugs. I look at her and say NO! She um humms me and asks me about what drugs make you sleepy because her son is always sleepy after school and sleeps for many hours of the day. I tell her it could be him coming off speed or him coming off ectasy. SO anyways, we talk a lil more and I almost wanna just tell her all that's going on in my life. I needed some comfort. I was so close just to leaveing early to call Michelle. After what seems like forever, its time to go home.
In the car, my mom asks how my day was. I tell her *shitty* She is like what's wrong. I tell her I have a headache and i threw up. SHe then asks if its the tumor headache. I tell her it feels like that but it can't be. I"m more thinking along the lines of the side effect to the pills. So anyways, we're driving home and I almost cry yet I act angry. I felt SO mixed. I get here at home and decide to do this entry and look for Michelle online. SHe ain't online. I need to talk to her. I need some comfort. I comforted her last night, now its my turn. Ok, that is all. ~END~