Well, it's over. The friendship between me and Eliza. After her introducing me to a whole crop of new people about a year and a half ago, it ends here. We got into a huge argument about money she owed me. I had lent her $60 in December to help her get her bus pass. Since then, I have learned that she has had money and has tried to hide the fact that she has by avoiding me and lying. I tried to give her the option of payments and she kept up her lie that she couldn't pay not a thing. I almost let it go but she lied to me when I asked her if she has had ANY money in the past 6 months. She said no as she looked straight into my eyes. Had Alex not told me she had money, I maybe would've let it go, but since she paid him and not me, then had the nerve to look me straight in the eyes and say that, I couldn't take it. I told her she could keep the money and never talk to me again. I used the old karma line, what comes around goes around. While I don't paticularly subscribe to that logic, I know she does. So we argued and said curse words and walked off. She was with Jesse. I had asked Jesse if she was still my friend, she said no because what michelle did at the pizza place. *She wasn't even there, and besides, just because michelle turned off the tv there, WTF?* So I told her she could F off too. After I called the two hoochies, Jesse had threaten me. Though the next day, she apologized and wanted to be cool. Only cause I want some info am I keeping our friendship. She isn't my friend, she liked me, and now that I'm with Michelle, she hardly talks to me. I understand but I don't like her scheming personality. Always up to something.

As for my other topic, heart palpatations, Michelle has had some serious heart issues lately. I want her to go to a doctor. We read stuff online and think they're heart palpatations. You never know though, that's for the docs to decide. We're worried. Hopefully it's not serious....

As for other things, our relationship hasn't been so hot of late. The small arguments have begun to frustrate the both of us. I get tired of her anxiousness and bossiness, she gets tired of me stalling and getting upset at her asking alot of me. I believe we'll work it out, just it's a little on the rough side right now. If I somehow lost her, i'd be devasted. Logically, I know I'd have to get over it and try again. *alot of fish in the sea right?* Emotionally, I dunno. It was a risk for me to invest alot emotionally. If this doesn't work out, then next time, i may try not to be as attached.

Well, here I am at the computer lab. I'm kinda bored, waiting for Michelle to get done with some tutoring. After this, she will meet with her teacher and then pick up some cliff notes. Another typical day. That is what is frustrating. We're always running around and having to be at certain places exactly on time to catch bus and make things work out.

Oh, we MIGHT and I stress the might, see Ray today. Michelle has been waiting to see him for a long time. The reason being that I talked about him so much. Mostly postive. Some early fourth of july thingy. *odd, its the 3rd but fireworks on the 3rd, weird* Monique may be there with her sisters. She is a girl I liked but she never thought I was attractive. *I was alot fatter back then* I hear that she's fat now and has a kid. I also hear she just got off drugs. Talk about going downhill. Wow, people sure do change over time. I was a different person back then, as was she. Anyways, that is all, got a classmate right next to me.