After my last entry, I wasn't sure what to say to Michelle. I then ended up on the bus going to Wal-mart. While going, I felt sad and alone. I really felt lonely and stuff. THen I remember, DUH, you got someone who Loves u alot and misses you. Fast-forward to tonight.

I see her online and we talk wonderfully. Was like old times. It was great. She got off for a second and I talked to her little sister. *she is 14, same age as my lil sis* The following is the conversation.

Tino: can i ask u a question
seastarbaby84: wat
Tino: do u hate me?
* she stalls* seastarbaby84: yes
Tino: y?
Tino: did u ever know that ur big sister was going to kill herself?
seastarbaby84: lier
Tino: i stopped her
seastarbaby84: sure
Tino: ask her
Tino: i got the chat log
Tino: you want our whole chat log
Tino: i can send it to u
Tino: you can see everything
seastarbaby84: watever
Tino: she also wanted to drop out of college
seastarbaby84: i knew tat already
Tino: she wanted to go out with thug type guys
Tino: be on drugs all the time
Tino: Her fav was E
seastarbaby84: wats E
Tino: Ectasy
seastarbaby84: did she do it
*i'm thinking, oh great* Tino: honestly
seastarbaby84: well did she
Tino: once
seastarbaby84: and ur not lieing
Tino: no
Tino: she wanted to do it here too
Tino: but
Tino: i don't play that
Tino: i seen who she was inside
Tino: she is better than that
Tino: i know you think she lives like crap and u think i stole her away
Tino: but things are getting better
Tino: we could possibly transfer to UCLA
Tino: and she wants to live with u guys
Tino: I'm cool with that
Tino: as a matter face
Tino: *fact
Tino: she wants to live there too, but with me there
Tino: and ur dad obviously wouldn't like that
Tino: so that why she don't come back
Tino: she misses u guys
Tino: especially u
seastarbaby84: why dont u cut da sweet talk
Tino: what u mean?
seastarbaby84: dunno
Tino: ......one day you'll know the whole story
Tino: i'm not the villian u think i am
Tino: she was going on the wrong path
seastarbaby84: right now
Tino: u think she on the wrong path right now?
seastarbaby84: yea
Tino: if she didn't come here, she'd be out partying
seastarbaby84: i noe
seastarbaby84: haha
Tino: its not the best path
Tino: i give u that
seastarbaby84: i noe
Tino: i wouldn't recommend it
Tino: but
seastarbaby84: whut
seastarbaby84: recomand whut
Tino: this path
seastarbaby84: whut path
Tino: my path
seastarbaby84: ?
seastarbaby84: there is no tpath
Tino: to life
seastarbaby84: whut life
seastarbaby84: there i sno life
Tino: sure there is
Tino: your interacting and thinking
seastarbaby84: no there isn't
Tino: aren't u?
seastarbaby84: no
Tino: o....k
seastarbaby84: how could u think that
seastarbaby84: meanny
Tino: huh
seastarbaby84: meann
Tino: how am i a meany?
Tino: why does ur sister think i'm so sweet?
seastarbaby84: i so gona sew u when i get out of sccool
seastarbaby84: u can guartee that
seastarbaby84: ha
Tino: sew?
seastarbaby84: think about that
Tino: sue?
seastarbaby84: i gona be a lawyer
Tino: that's nice
seastarbaby84: i gona put u in jail
seastarbaby84: for takin my sis
seastarbaby84: ha
seastarbaby84: take that
Tino: thing is
seastarbaby84: whut do u think of that *I actually thinking that she sounds immature and She is hurt and blames me*
Tino: one
Tino: statue of limitations
seastarbaby84: i gona beat u up
Tino: 2, consent
Tino: 3. i didn't get with her till she was over 18
Tino: so...
Tino: but besides that
Tino: she was gonna die
Tino: she was so depressed
seastarbaby84: why
Tino: the shit she was going through was too much
Tino: the expectations
seastarbaby84: wat shit
Tino: the coldness
seastarbaby84: of wat
Tino: of your parents
Tino: not to be mean
Tino: that is what she said to me
seastarbaby84: yea i noe
Tino: then she was messing up in UCR
Tino: felt like she was a failure
Tino: she hated that
seastarbaby84: hey but we live through tat 2
Tino: but it hurts
Tino: the older u get
Tino: the worse it gets
Tino: she wasn't gonna live through that
Tino: she was going to forget about it
Tino: through drugs or death
Tino: why u think she sneak out and party
Tino: she try to forget about all that

So after all that, Michelle finally comes back. I tell her i told her and showed her this and she was mad at first, but was ok with it i guess. There is more, but can't tell her sister yet. I just hope i didn't say too much. I just hate having people hate me for nothing. Anyways, that is all. I MISS U MICHELLE!!!!!!!!!!