Wow, an entry is LONG overdue. Where to start. Hmm. Well, not sure where, so just gonna write what pops into my head.

First off, lemme say its not such a great idea to have a girl sleeping in your bed if you wanted to save your virginity till marriage. With that being said, lemme put it this way, I'm not a virgin anymore. Yeah, it happened. Trust me when I say I felt bad for breaking the vow to stay to marriage. We both had planned for it to be till marriage, but I guess the hormones took control. Some may say Satan, I dunno, maybe they're right. ANyways, I felt really awful right after the first time, I even cryed and Michelle looked very puzzled. I didn't quite explain to her why. The day after I asked Jesus for forgiveness and stuff. Though its pretty useless when I keep putting myself in the position to sin over and over again.

Now that that's out the way, gonna write about other stuff. Well, it hasn't been perfect, but the relationship has been very nice. I realize none are perfect so I'm ok with it. THe biggest problem isn't me but my family. They are very dysfunctional. Something Michelle didn't realize because I had stopped talking about it. Part of the reason why was because people told me I was whinning. ANother reason was because it got old. I had decided to suck it up and not say anything about it. *ok, time to go back on track* Well, Michelle doesn't like the family, and with good reason too. My mom expects her to do everything around the house and has no sympathy for us when it comes to going anywhere. For example, its raining outside and I had to go to my Job to talk to my boss. You'd think that my mom would take us while its raining and dark outside. Well she made us take the bus. If that isn't bad enough, the neighborhood isn't one where you want to walk outside after dark. Also, she sees how my big brother is. NOt to mention my lil bro and sis which are incredibly jealous. They see her as taking thier time and money from them. They especially hate the fact that I buy MIchelle stuff and not them. I know, inconsiderate, but I make only minimum wage, I can't afford much.

Oh, newsflash, I no longer work at JC Penny. I got layed off. This happened the Saturday after Christmas. I think I would've stay with them had I not got into an argument with the supervisor. *long story short, Top supervisor tells me to do stuff one way, my boss says another way, I follow the top supervisor*

Hmmm, whatelse. Oh yeah, religously, I am doing horrid. It's bad on my part because he has answered my prayers and showed me I could have faith, yet I sit here with this non-chalant attitude. Like now I want to handle my own agenda. The thing I'm gonna do is hook up with the church again and start praying and stuff. I know going to church doesn't get me closer to God, but it exposes me to him and makes it inviting for me to follow more. I work weird. As for MIchelle, she's willing to give it a try and I'm happy about that. She is very opened minded about stuff.

Oh, before I forget, thank you Diane for the card, Kara for the video and book. It was much appreciated. Trust me, I get very happy when I see people send me stuff. LOL. You should see me, I'm like a lil kid getting a gift. : ) Anyways. Off to the mall me and Michelle go. To exchange a few things and maybe buy a nice outfit for me, there is an upcoming b-day party for one of Alex's friends. *my friend alex* As of today, gonna write daily now, I very much regret not writing. So much I missed putting like lil crazy adventures me and Michelle went on and stupid lil arguments and can smile and look back on. I may put some entries back a lil to fill in some voids. Well, later. Hope to see someone online.