Went to church today. Got picked up and on drive there I felt great. NOt sure why, just did. While there I get put in room of new believers. THey are covering the VERY basics. After that finished, talked to this woman named Janna. *I know her, just haven't talked to her in awhile* SHe was asking about my tumor. FIRST person in the church to actually ask about it. I told her. Got conversation cut off by the pastor. *didn't like that actually* Go to pew. Listen to sermon. Get out, seperate myself from crowd as usual. There, I was thinking about how bad I've been as a christian. I just looked at cross and was like, HEY, I want you to help change me. ALL aspects, I'm here, DO your influencing.

I then just left place I was. DIdn't feel any different. I go and start talking to people about lack of passion there. *mainly older people* The sing like their reading for goodness sakes. So I tell them some ideas they like. From that, I start feeling like just this need to do stuff to help situation. So I gave my advice to pastor. He liked. :) After, I was ready to leave when I found out that some of the people were gonna pass out lunchs to the homeless. I decide to go. Is good what they were doing, but I gave them some ideas they hadn't thought of. Such as adding maybe a pamplet in the lunchs, and number they can call. Anyways, we arrive in area. *is worse than my area* There is alot of people, just there in parking lot where lots of loud music was. I get out car, grab bunch of lunchs and start asking people if they would like a bagged lunch. THey of course get the food. THey say thank you. I tell them, don't thank me, thank GOD. Was nice feeling helping. I was most active person among group. *VERY MUCH NOT MY CHARACTER* After we ran out, I felt bad that we didn't have enough for every person, but they were ready to leave. We did.

I get home and read this thing I picked up about the sabbath. I believe in sabbath keeping again. I can take all verses, anyone desputing Saturday as day of rest, bring me your verses! After reading, I try to call Jeff, just to talk, he don't pick up phone. From there, I just kinda daze off watch some tv. *was a lil lonely, but I lived right* I go online after long while, chat. After that, I reread my last few entries. Was gonna write entry about me analyzing me. But nah. NO need, besides, lil bro's dad just got here. I got to go.