Well, today wasn't among my better days. To the outside world, would seem that it was, but on the inside, it wasn't. The things I've been trying to avoid in my life are bugging me. *argh* This is frustrating. I thought I was over everything. THought all my issues were dealt with and stuff. I guess they're still there. Ha, that's funny, I should know this. DId i honestly think that I wouldn't hit lows again? *sigh* Let me type about my day.
Today I went to my Psych 44 class and my weight training class. Learned some more cool stuff. If I was in the mood, I'd write an entry about it. ANyways, after all that, Me, Ayumi, Romero, and April decided to go to the mall. Donald said he didn't want to go. SO we walk to the bus stop when we find he's following us. So we go on the bus and he goes and sits in the front of the bus while the rest of us go to the back. I'm there and I decide to go and find out what's up. He goes on about not feeling right and wanting to be left alone. So I go back and he then sits next to me. SO i then decide to interact with the group. I do for awhile then realize that Donald isn't saying anything. He says he's listening. *though it don't seem like it* We later talk and he tells me that he just don't know what's wrong. I tell him about living in the moment again. And just to release. At that point, we arrive at the mall.
At the mall, I stick mainly with April. Donald goes out on his own, while Ayumi and Romero walk around with each other. Its ok. Donald enjoyed the time. He was even asertive at some points. *something he never is* At the end of the whole thing, he thanked me and told me he enjoyed himself. *if only I had did that* Had my mom have my big brother pick me up. OH, seems April knows him, she thinks he's cute. *whatever* I get in the car and get exactly what I expected. He put down my friends, my mannerisms, just everything that had to do with me down. It hurted. I didn't let him know it till later in an argument, but it did. Even though his opinion of me means beans to me, still, lowering me and making jokes of me to his girlfriend at my expense hurts.
After crying on my bed for a bit, I got online. I seen Danielle. We chatted. I was somewhat open with her. SHe seemed to enjoy the conversation, she remarked that we should talk more often. Will write more later, END