Just got home and checked my comments. Wow, someone of you felt in the lashing out mood yesterday. LOL Since these paticular comments seemed to need responses, I'm answering them. *if you ever feel you need me to respond to a comment, make it private and tell me you want to address an issue* My responses will be in bold.
First comment,

From: Thoughts Aloud (Unauthenticated)
Date Posted: 26 Nov 2001
Poor people don't have computers and poor people don't have telephones. Poor people don't have the finances to go to college or university.
"I don't have money for college, I'm subsidized by grants and other things"
Poor people don't do a lot of things that you are able to my friend. Your "same ol house" to a real poor person would be a palace. The computer you type on a luxury.
"I'm not sure they would consider a 4 year old Packard bell luxury, but I get your point"
Poor is living in a cardboard box under a bridge. Poor is eating other people's garbage. Poor is not what you are.
Yes you may indeed be disadvantaged to some extent. But you are in a position where you are able to study and learn and you have the resources at your fingertips to do so. You may not be as "rich" as others, but you are by no means poor.

I suggest you remember all the things that you do have before proclaiming yourself poor.
"From your definition, no I guess I'm not poor. The reason, you are looking at the definition of absolute poverty is. As my welcome page says, I am what SOME would call poor. I realize I am relativly poor and not absolutly. Believe me, I am grateful for the oppurtinities I do have. I do know that there is worse. Basically though, I PROCLAIM myself poor cause society tells me so. That society is American. If it was Indian, I'd proclaim myself middle class. I just go by the labeling system of this culture, I'm sorry if I don't view myself in a global perspective. If I did, then I guess I won't be poor, but I view myself in american perspective. And according to them I'm poor, so I will continue with that till another label fits me. I'm not gonna say I'm middle class if that is not the label I am given day in and day out. Sorta like a dumb person *according to americans* going to Afganistan may be considered smart there. So should that person consider themselves smart if the society they interact in day in and day out tells them they are dumb. Anyways, I hate those analogies of eating out of garbage and living in cardboard box. Should the person feel privilged cause atlest there is a box availiable and garbage to eat where someone in Ethopia doesn't have that?"

I also suggest you don't label yourself the way you have done. Get a professional opinion or you will find you start to act the way you think you should all because you read somewhere about a disorder you may or may not have.

Ok, I agree there. Just I like looking and posting info like that just to compare and contrast my personality

You spend much time complaining.
There is always someone worse off than you.

LOL, is funny how people always say don't feel scared to talk about your emotions and feelings then when you do, oh, stop your complaining. I know there is someone worse off than me, there is always worse. Frankly, I don't care about whoever that is, I am worried about me.

Even in regards to your tumor.
You are still alive and you still have life in you and yet you seem to take that forgranted.
I guess I shouldn't stress that I may die or that i'm getting worse daily. And "complaining" about it helps me cope with this reality. So back off

Negative attitude only breeds bitterness and unhappiness.
Perhaps the symptoms you have described that also relate to the disorders you have researched are nothing more than your own negativity.

Have you ever thought that maybe I want to find out why I have that negativity? Maybe that is why I look at that info.

Perhaps you should research that or at look into the "real" definition of poor not just a dictionary meaning.
Better yet ask a street person what they consider rich as. I am sure to them you fit into that category. I know some street person would not consider me rich. The living environment is subpar when compared to others here in America. I get your lil point though. I do have things and I should be grateful for what I do have. You know what, most the time I am, there are just sometimes that I don't have certain things and know I can't get them is when I dispair about the amount of money I have.
There is a saying that the grass is greener on the other side.
However I believe people like you forget to take care of your own grass and this is why it looks less alive.

Persistant complaining and your own negativity shall be your downfall.

Maybe the lack of complaining and false positivity brought me to this sad depressed state. Before, I'd just bottle up my emotions and lie to myself.

To be a better Christian as you claim you want to be, try first being thankful for what you do have instead of what you don't.

Ok, pretty good saying, all you really had to say to get the point across instead of coming across as offensive.

Understand also that this is just my opinion and I mean no malice.

God Bless you with the desires of your heart not your mind.

Hey, feel free to comment any time. I enjoy constructive criticism. That is why I left unauthticated available.

Did you think that was all, EPP, WRONG, another comment.

BPD is what shrinks call the throw away disorder. Anyone and everyone can fit into that category by simply reading the classifications, same way a person suffering pickerism can be labelled a self injuerer where by they are completely different problems and deal with different issues all together. Online diagnosis is amusing. Would you conclude you have lepracy by reading some non specific information online or would you await a doctors analysis? Online diagnosis is dangerous and so very inaccurate that is why it takes years of study and continuing study to become a memeber of the medical profession. The human mind and body are complicated if it were as simple as reading a chart of symptoms why do we pay doctors and so forth?

GOod advice for most part though the reason we pay doctors is cause alot of us don't have time to figure out things for ourselves. ok, had to say that, good comment, so far

All you are doing is fucking with your head more. Oh I have this and this wrong with me however will I cope, when really you are merely human and as I said some disorders like BPD are throw aways that can encaptulate the whole human race. The mind is much more complicated and fragile then the body so why do people insist on thinking its a one size fits all affair?
YOu should've took a chill pill before that comment. :D Though your comment was cool. The reason, like I said, I'm trying to figure out my character. IS what I want to do, if you do not want to read about me doing it, then there are over 12,000 other diarist out there in DD. Anyways, thanks for your time and concern though. Feel free to point something out anytime.

Ok, Enough of that, I'm beat. Other than that, I would just like to tell any of you, if you have something to say, Say it. And if your to chicken to use your username, use unauthenticated. OH, and take a chill pill before you do. Is funny you guys wrote all that about the self-diagoniseing but the person who hit it home for me was sobriquet. Take a cue from her and don't let your emotions overtake you. That is all