Time for some of the cool things usnavy4u said. *then some analysing that and what Jayne said. *yes, again* Ok, here is goes.. Communist soldiers discovered an illegal bible study going on in the town. The communist found the house, barged in and began threats to the pastor ans his family for studying the Bible. the communist pointed a gun at the pastors head and shouted to him to hand over his bible. the pastor did so. the guard threw the bible on the floor. the guard looked at him and said, "We will let you go if you spit on this book of lies. anyone who refuses will be shot." The Believers felt they had no choice but to obey. the soldier pointed the gun to one of the men and told him he was first. the man knelt down to the Bible and prayed "Father please forgive me". the soldier went to the woman and siad it was her turn. she was afraid but still spat on the Bible a little but was enought to allow her freedom. "Queitly, the young girl came forward. Overcome with love for her Lord, she knelt down and picked up the Bible. She wiped all the spit off with her dress. "What they have done to Your word, please forgive them" she prayed. The communist soldier then shot her taking her life. most of us facing persecution today could escape if they deny their faith. The question os not whether we are persected, but whether we are willing to lay down our life for our faith in Jesus Christ. *after the story, I was like wow* One of the last things she said was, just remeber, whatever we do, it is bc Christ;s love contrils us.....Those who recieve his new life will no longer live to please themselves. Instead, they will live to please Christ, who died and was raised for them. *that kind of thing made me think* *makes me want to change for some reason*

Now after that, I made my entry then sat up and kinda absorbed it all. Thing that got me thinkin' first though is what Jayne said. SHe said, and I quote from the log, "it is your choice to let your situation run you or you get some attitude and make your situation change. its up to you. i have been in a sucky situation and i got an attitude with life and worked my ass off and made it work until i got what i needed to". then said, "playingjayne: but when ppl begin to say I can't
taz want food1: You think every situation is the same
playingjayne: it pisses me off.
This little exchange we had made me realize something. SOmething about life and why people don't do things to help people. And why people haven't helped me. *I'm talking about the people at my church* Its the concept that "I made it through hard times, you can too, if you want" That's what they think. Hmmm. Later Jayne did say every situation is different and stuff. Still though, that lil part of our chat still has me thinking. Made me understand why people *especially well off people* don't help out the lesser half. They in a sense believe that the other half isn't trying as hard. *oh, if you think I'm taking anything out of context, I got the log, I will email it to ya and let it stand on its own merit if you want* Anyways, as for what navy4u said. She kinda sums up what all of you have said. I looked back at some comments. I have to give you people your credit. Ya'll just didn't break it down in summary form. Anyways, I want to thank both jayne and usnavy4u for caring. ANd anyone else for that matter.