If I'm writing about a dark subject, it probably means its late at night. What subject can be more darker than death? Its the one thing that you can't outwit, outrun or out anything. Though we all know that, not everyone agrees about what happens next or even what its like to have breathed your last breath. I guess we can only infer what its like by looking at people's last words. (I don't put too much stock in near death experiences as they vary too much within and between cultures)

I actually got caught up in looking at last words last night. I was reading about Frank Sinatra and had read that his last words were "I'm losing". This was intriguing to me I always heard that you know when you're gonna die just before it happens. (i'm thinking hours, not years or even weeks) So I looked up other last words to see what others had said; wondering if they were able to forsee it and what, if any, pain they went through.

According to Mark 15:34 & Matthew 27:46, Jesus is said to have said "God, God, why have you forsaken me?" He apparently felt isolation from God during the process. (some believe the burdon of sin killed him..)

George Washington Carver said "I think I'll sleep now" Abigail Folger told her attackers "you can stop now, I'm already dead." They seemed able to since it.

Others, seem to make light of it. Voltaire said to a priest that was asking him to renounce Satan "Now, now, my good man, this is no time for making enemies.". Del Close said "Thank God. I'm tired of being the funniest person in the room"

Most praise God or just tell thier family and friends that they loved them.

I wonder what my last words are gonna be. I wonder how it is to know you are actually dying. What is next? I mean, its one thing to have your beliefs, its quite another to be there. (or conversely, nowhere) I dunno but I suppose that for now, all one can do is enjoy this moment.

Bah, reading this over, this is a horribly composed entry. I might just rewrite this. Yeah, some neuroticism kicking in now. Guess its times to recharge the batteries. Take care