Day started with me waking up 4 hours before my date. I take shower, get ready, leave after anxiously waiting for time to go by. I get on bus with rose. Lots of people were looking. Eventually I get to the plaza.

I'm standing there with rose behind my back for quite a while actually. She was 20 minutes late. I for a minute thought she had stood me up. I seen her standing with her mom. I shake her mom's hand and still have rose behind back. The mom leaves. I present rose to Crystal. She looks, and says,"oh, ok, thanks" *I was like, geez, that's not the reaction I thought I'd get*

So we start walking and I ask her if she wants to go to Johnny Rockets. *hamburger place* She says she wants to go shopping. *i'm thinking, what the heck, SHOPPING?!* So I say sure and we head into some stores. She is so self abosorbed its pathetic. Was only thinking about buying stuff for others. Like I try to show her some of the stuff I saw and make jokes out of them, but she didn't even acknowledge I was doing anything. Took her an hour and half to realize I'm not getting anything. So we continue to look round for another hour. After that, I'm feeling frustated and confused so I tell her we have to talk.

First thing I ask her is, "How do you feel about me" She goes on and tells me she thinks of me as a cool friend. I asked her if she ever really "liked" me. She said not in that sense. She then apologized for maybe misleading me. She then also explains she's still breaking up with some other dude. After that, I was disheartened that day didn't go as planned. I guess it showed a bit caused she asked if I was ok. I told her yeah. We finish day by eating at the Food court. She bought her own thing, I bought mines. I head home.

On way home I reflect and feel a bit down. Get home, go on my bed, lay there and think some more. Eventually I cry. *I know, pathetic* I just cryed cause I had high hopes. Probaly too high. I left message on Jeff's phone after I fell asleep. He eventually calls. Notices I a bit down, finds way to cheer me up. I'm alright for now. There are other fish in the sea. Just, I wanted to have someone right now. I dunno. Anyways, I'm off. I'm gonna eat, take shower, sleep.