Just got done taking a LONG HARD test in cross-cultural psychology. Studyed alot. I believe I did well. I expect an A. I would be shocked if I got under a B. Though the scary part is the curve. If everyone does well, grades get lowered. So I'm in the awkward position of hoping everyone else did miserably. Felt the test asked so much for so little time. They were all short answer. 14 questions. 1 hour 30 minutes. I ended up doing over 5 pages of very detailed answers. My hand was cramping because I didn't have much time. I finished with 3 minutes to go. Will likely know next monday.

Me and Michelle are doing good again. So we're on the upside of the rollercoaster again. A lot of talking and spending time has helped a lot of things.

Read a few of you guys' entries and this didn't seem like a good week for yous. Sorry to hear that. Lost all collectively hope things get better.

My brain is tired. Too much cramming. Ugh. I wanted to write more about psychology but I doubt that happens now. No more psychology please...

I think I'm being more and more in touch with myself and God. I think I'm finding a lot of peace. Trying to focus on us and not much else. I'm glad. Its so hard to be ok. A few days ago, I ended up playing an old song I used to listen to when I was lonely and depressed. Got sad. Just remembered all the hurt I used to have. My relationship didn't solve everything like I thought it would, but I have became more aware. I'm slightly upset that I didn't fix myself earlier. I feel even without a relationship, I won't be in such a deep pit. If one could only travel back in time. Would tell myself to apprecitate life and treasure those around me. Especially my grandma. What an idiot I was. She was there to talk to and I ignored her. I know I can't dwell but *sigh* yeah, should've known better.

Anyways, on a lighter note, I think one of the adults I teach may like me. She is the youngest, 19, and is hmong. The reason I say this was at first I had the intuition. Didn't think too much of it. Her body language sorta implied something but I thought, maybe I'm overthinking things. Then, today, she drew me this card. It had a rose with heart shaped lily pads. In her broken English, she said, "be valentine" I said, "thank you" I then continued to teach. I ofcourse can't date for 2 reasons. One, i'm taken. Two, the job doesn't allow that. So I'm flattered atleast. Was nice considering how crazy today was with the stormy windy weather and my studying my flash cards while walking. Was using a broken umbrella on top of that. So yeah.......

Nothing else really. Trying to enjoy things. I dunno, for the longest time, i haven't truely enjoyed life. I enjoyed certain activities but when was the last time I wrote a glowing entry about my day?