Today I went to prayer meeting. Didn't go exactly because I felt all spiritual and stuff, I more went because I was bored. *I know, not the right reason but atleast I went* So I get there and everyone is in this circle standing up and I go and stand. I close my eyes and listen to the people talk. We then sit after about 5 minutes. I'm thinking, not bad.
After that, we are sitting when they start to talk about the bible then pray. So i'm kneeling at my chair and people are randomly speaking about problems and stuff. I start thinking about what to pray about and try to concentrate. It is very hard for me. I kept thinking of stuff I really shouldn't be thinking of. After about 30 minutes of that, its a break time. Talk to a few, then they sing. After that, pastor starts talking about miracles that prayer has brought and such. *I dunno, sometimes I doubt its power* He says if you have the right motivation for what you pray for it will happen. So then he lists off a bunch of things that need prayer. For some very odd reason, I was hoping i was on that list. LOL. So then we pray again. This time seemed longer. Everyone kept praying for same stuff. I kept moving around and breaking concentration. *its been awhile since I prayed like this*
When its finally over, I am glad. Everyone seems happy and I get to talking to a few. I get several things of advice and then get ready to leave. Its weird, the people I want to be cool with don't seem to want to be cool with me. I shouldn't be picky and I feel wrong about it. It's just I hear what they are talking about, they are talking about computers and music and other stuff I would talk about but I'm not included. I just get those that like to help give advice and stuff. Sometimes I wonder if they just want me to stay so they give me attention. Or maybe they pity me, since I sit at the back and at corners. I dunno. I shouldn't judge thier motivations, but hey, i do.
I leave and head out with John-Carlo. *came with alberto* I wish I was with Alberto. John-carlo was on the cell phone most of the time and paid me lil mind. That is a pet peeve of mines. I absolutely hate when people talk on cell phones and not talk to me. I feel like they can talk to them later.
Speaking of pet peeves. I hope I don't offend anyone i know but I hate when others I call *or call me* start talking to someone at thier house more than they talk to me. Its like, we're on the phone, that person will still be there. If they are more important, tell me you will call later. That is all