Isn't that lovely when you get to make a decision that could be either really good or haunt you for quite a while? Guess who has a decision to make? No, its not my cat furball! So this place called me because they seen my resume on the college website. They want me to work with autistic children. They'd train me and pay me around $11 an hour. Its a job working with people who are psychologically troubled; which I wanted. Though I didn't really want it to be with autistic children. They are very difficult to handle. I mean, I was hoping for something like suicidal patients. *sounds weird huh* But I could relate to that. This will be a challenge. I intially really don't want to go but already accepted the interview because I was happy they were calling me for a change.

I talked to Michelle and she really wants me to take it for obvious reason. It gives me money *very much needed* and some psychology background besides education. I'll go and see what its about. Though I'm worried that it'd be too hectic and then I'd have to quit. I'd hate to have that follow me on my resume. Though not sure that I have any choice. I do think the positions that I've applied for with the state and county will come through eventually, but I'm not 100% sure. I got the interview Monday, so I'll probaly write what happened before some of you read this entry.

This weekend was nice. Tutored a few at the college and hung out with Michelle. My mom was gone all weekend with her bf Lorenzo. That's right, didn't come back to cook for my lil bro or sis. She didn't do anything. In the meanwhile, my lil sister's boyfriend, Ricky *same name as my big bro* is sleeping on the same bed as my lil sister. Knowing how natural it is to atleast touch the opposite sex when laying next to them, I try to keep an eye on them. But honestly, if they really wanted to do something, I can't be there 24 hours a day.

In other news, I think somewhere around the 6th, my and jen got into another misunderstanding. Actually, its me who misunderstood what she was saying. I had some reason to think she was implying me in her diary negatively and thus dropped her a comment about me saying that if I was being too critical, I'd stop reading her diary. She commented to me back basically explaining the misunderstanding and saying I could read her diary. So, once again I assumed wrong and I'm not gonna hide that fact because i just believe that'd be a lie of omission. I guess to me, I had been feeling that everytime we chat or anything, it just seemed like a chore for her. You know them chats, you talk and the other person just replies. It wasn't just one chat, but a recent chat just confirmed in my head *at that moment, not anymore* that she didn't really wanna chat to me. Plus, I had been Iming her first for quite a few times now. So yeah........ I don't know, I think its just gonna be ockward now. I don't want it to be. She don't want it to be. But, I just don't see how she'll every really feel comfortable with me again. I guess because I believe that we all have some chat friends we kinda don't care to chat with but don't wanna be rude and tell them to buzz off. Doesn't mean that "that" sterotype really exsists, but just something I think happens. And then, there are those you can't wait to see them log on. You know, they log on and you just click on thier name and your comfortable talking to them. Those are the ones you can really talk to, you know. The others, they get to know general things, but not specifics. So yeah...... I just been trying to figure out who really is comfy with me and who thinks I'm annoying or boring. The morale of the story is that you should never assume. DUH, but you know, its tempting. Especially when you think your sure. And then there have been times you were sure. Anyways.

Lastly, I got to start practicing driving. STAY OFF THE ROAD, HERE I COME! I'll be happy when I actually got a car with all the paper work done. Finally, some time freedom. Sorry environment, but the bus is just too unreliable.

Ok, really lastly this time. If you didn't get a comment yet, don't worry, I haven't been commenting in the last few days. You know me, I got back in time in your diary. Don't believe me, just ask kaliko or jen. They know. Though sometimes its weird to comment on old entries. You know, they could be sad in the past but their current entry is very upbeat or something. Wish me whatever is your equivilent of luck. Boy I'm a bad speller without MS word or anything. But, I don't believe diaries should be edited. Not mines atleast. Take care you little devils you. Ok ok, your not devils. You prefer chimps? Really? Bye my lil chimps.