Well, it all started with me waking VERY early. I was very tired because I had stayed up late talking to Michelle again. Anyways, went to school just to end up missing ANOTHER class. I dunno what's wrong with me. I just feel like I wanna leave college, its so hard for me.

Ok, moving on. The day started to get interesting when Eliza showed up. She talks a little and me and Donald walk her to her class. After sliding down a few rails, I see April coming in with Nicki. They ask where Eliza is. I say, "here In the business building" So they go looking for her and eventually see her. Nicki says she has to talk. At that point, I thought it could be bad for Eliza. *Eliza don't like Nicki*

So Eliza eventually gets out her class and goes to the student center quickly. It's me, Donald, Eliza, Richard and Brian. We all then start talking about Ayumi. Everyone is tired of her lying and being psycho. THe thing that stirred them up was the fact I kept the chat log between me and Ayumi while I was talking to Eliza on the phone. Had Ayumi talking about EVERYONE! The big thing though was that the log had the fact that Nicki told Ayumi that Eliza still cared for *asian guy* Brian. Eliza was scared that if that got back to her new guy, Pedro, that they'd be over.

SO after pulling me out of the student center, me and Eliza talk. She wants to whoop Nicki. SO lo and behold, Nicki shows up. Eliza confronts her. At first, Nicki totally denies saying anything. So after Eliza intimidated her, suprisingly, Nicki got her a white mocha. SO things seem cool till we get back in the student center. Nicki leaves briefly, then comes back in to pull Eliza out. Eliza drags me with her. Ayumi is outside. So AYumi starts to yell at me for ruining her friendship with april. *i forgot, I told april what ayumi said about her, ayumi said april whines too much* So then Eliza stops us and brings up the issue of who said what. Nicki eventually admits that at first she said something but recently she hasn't. Though Ayumi says she said it recently. After some arguing, no one fights and me and Eliza decide we want some food.

We walk to the bus stop and Eliza sees brian and talks with him while nicki is there. Brian kinda tries to flirt with her, though Eliza don't flirt back. We leave when their bus comes. She then tells me that she thinks Nicki did all this because Nicki hate that Brian gets along better with Eliza. So eventually, we ride bus and then take light rail. We end up going to Arbys. My treat *owned her one* We then go to give her brother some money. After that, we walk over to midtown and go to her old friend Dennis.

Dennis knew her way back when, and the fact that they use to gangbang was obvious to me. From the fact Eliza refused to use a blue lighter. *other things too* We hang out there a bit and Eliza again tries to get me to dance. I do slightly, though I'm not good at dancing to Eminem. So eventually we walk to downtown.

In downtown, we first go to the top of some parking lot. Looked nice from up there. We then leave after some security guard tells us to leave. We then walk around and end up at the river. We look at it and I think about how nice it'd be if I could show Michelle that view. After walking around we end up at Dennis' again. We then listen to some old music. Eventually some Jodeci. I LOVE JODECI's SONGS. So deep. Eliza was practicing them to sing to pedro. In the back of my mind I couldn't help but think that it could've easily been me she would've sang too. Though I blew my chances about a year ago when I decided to eliminate her as a possiblity. I reget it.

I feel like I missed a good oppurtunity and that the next chance for anything is with MIchelle. Though something in me says that she won't actually move and that I"m just wasting my time. I dunno. Time will tell. I also sometimes wonder if she does "love me" I think she cares for me. Like a VERY good friend but I dunno about love. She always says, "luv ya bye" Really fast on the phone. Also, not all the time, just at night. During the day, she don't even really wanna talk. She with her friends. No biggie since I"m usually with mines. STill though, I feel she don't have that "love" component. I think I think that because she just so free with it. Maybe she has more faith in destiny because she always is like, in a way, tells me to date others if I want. I guess I have a hard time with faith. As anyone reading this diary for awhile should know, I lack faith in anything, espeically people.

In other news. Talked to DIane *kaliko88* last night. SHowed her the pics of my cat. She gave me some advice on that and comforted me about tumor and stuff. Was nice of her. I will have pics up in a while. Under friends website on left side. On another note, not liking Brian. He made a remark about my voice. Not just that, he always has something to say to me and talks about others. One more thing and i'm just gonna tell him to screw himself.

Besides all that, I also missed bible study. : ( I should've attended. Also, my mom has been increasingly concerned about my health. Feels nice that she cares. Well, that is all I can think of. ~END~ My cat's wound