Nothing much except that I talked to my friend Ray again. I always enjoy talking with him. I could literally talk to him for 8 hours in a row. *we did that before actually* This time was only 3 and a half hours. Though I find my conversations with people very different from what they used to be. I used to be the one who talked about myself and what I felt and thought. Now, I listen a lot more and think in terms of psychology when I hear people refer to things in their lives. Though I did talk a lot when it came to theology. Me and him always go back and forth with perspectives on life. He's always been the one that was more religous/spiritual than me. However, he isn't as strong a believer as he once was. But I enjoy our talks because he always has me thinking as he is fairly creative in answering my jabs at faith. We would've talked longer but Michelle needed attention. 3 and a half hours was too much time away from her. YOU THINK I'm exaggerating? heheh I'm not. Then again, I like to be wanted too, so you could blame me for reinforcing her behavior too.
Actually, if you were really cleaver, you could explain a lot of my "odd" behavior and thoughts in the past on me wanting to be wanted. Then you could think about what kind of environment caused me to desire that. Then you could see how I really liked that Michelle really wanted to be around me when we were dating online. I'm just saying..... I think that is why I find psychology to be interesting. There is this underlying formula of internal and external factors that create these wants, irrational thoughts, and other stuff about a person. I just think its fascinating to see how that's built and try to rework it to work properly.
It's been really cold lately. *don't you love how I am jumping around?* I think I've been stupid in that I've been spending a good deal of money on snacks instead of investing in a space heater. Though I think of this as the poor people syndrome. I have it a bit. *what is it?* Its my own made up word to describe how many poor *and sometimes middle class* people buy many trivial items instead of a few major, important things. Though sometimes you see them buy a few expensive trivial things like Jordan shoes despite the fact that the shoes likely add up to 15% of their monthly income. Ofcourse, not all the poor are like this, I know. I usually am fairly conservative with money. *because I don't have much, heh* Society is to blame too. But I don't feel like playing the blame game right now, I always end up feeling like I lost. Crap, I have to go and chances are, I'm not going into my cold ass room to type later. Bye
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