Today started out badly. Woke up to hear t-storm messed up tv. *the main one* Then I couldn't take warm shower, hot water heater was messed up. SO I go on bus, very angry, then I arrive. I go to the student center. There is my group, they always are so happy. Always joking. *wish I felt so happy* So I go sit then talk for awhile. Nothing interesting, just I realize I got a bunch of papers due I didn't do. OMG!!! So I go to class. Very mad at self. I talk to teacher, she extends date after I talk to her. THANK YOU GOD!!! I"m SERIOUS! that grade counts alot.
So after that, I go in for lunch. There again is the crew. I almost get mad at this one girl cause she stole my seat, I had my bag there, and she moved it, I asked her to move, told me to sit elsewhere. I almost "flashed" on her. But I didn't. I moved. So I get my pop tarts and soda, eat. Yes, that is lunch. I finish that, while they eat actual lunchs, though I'm not hungry, My appetite isn't the same. :( Eventually, Jeff is about to leave when again, yes again, he asks if I'm ok, his girlfriend Avina is like, ofcourse he is, He says, are ya, I tell him don't worry about it. THough tomorrow I will get his email, tell him a few things. Sometimes I feel like saying, GO to DD and find out for yourself. But that would comprimise my diary. Speaking of email, I got Candace's and Andre's.
After hanging out there, I go over to Eliza's group. Yup. I go, there they are singing Selena songs, then she wants to go home after telling me some stuff about the end of the world. She says, come with me. Ok I say. I tell her about Dmv and stuff. We go to her house, there she shows me her poetry and drawings. Also, find out bout her mom. Her mom is bad. Though one thing I like about her, she can relate to me. Only person that can really. Has alot of similar problems. Though I don't like her any more. She is still nice friend. So Eventually, she walks me to bus stop with her dad, they go to supermarket, I get home. Mom is worried. WHAT THE HECK?!!! SInce when. A lil late for caring. Was a nice shock though. Eventually ate leftovers. Oh yeah, Eliza is suppose to email me. SO far, nothing. But she ain't a computer person much.
All in all, was ok day, nothing super bad I guess. Though I need to get on them papers. Tomorrow, I will see Jeff, I can't wait to tell him so I can get him off my back. LOL! I wonder what advice he'll give. Hmmm For some reason I feel I could trust him reading my diary, but no, I can't. THough I can't say I wouldn't love for someone to know the "real" me. THough mandah said it best, Let them know you first, then let them read the diary. Hmmmm, I'll see. No, he wouldn't show group, I have this trust with him. Weird. ANyways, till later, bye.
Comments (5)
I have been reading your diary for quite some time.
I rarely give comments on DD.. not only to you but to anyone I read.
I have been on the net for quite some years. since 1995. I use to wait for people (online aquaitances). Many times, I was always deceived. I was always expecting too much from them.
Although, I am almost 50 years old, I see a pattern between what you are saying and many of us that are here online. I don't wait anymore. Do you know why?? Over the years, I have aquired a lot of computer knowledge (while waiting for people) Today I am using my knowledge in computer, to create projects.
You sound like an intelligent person. I am sure you can do/create a lot with your computer knowledge. Don't belittle yourself Tinoz. Start putting more energy into creating instead of waiting. In years to come you will develop a more positive way to use this media called Internet/computers.
Don't forget one thing Tinoz. you are still young. There is a lot coming your way in the years to come.
It's ok to feel down.. It's ok to feel not in, it's ok to feel whatever. But remember.. EVERYONE feels the way you feel at times. Some feels it more than others. Some talk about more than others. But, in the end, I have a feeling you will come out of it ok. Just give time a chance.
A silent reader
Poupone