Today was hectic. I wake up and get ready. I'm tired but must press on. I then go on the bus and stuff and its late. The train is really late. I end up at work late and Casandra *the teacher* looked glad to see me. She needed me becaues 2 new students came in and needed me to test them and get them enrolled. So yeah, that was a lil crazy, not that bad. Though right after, Michelle gets mad at me because I want to go to my friend Alex's house. That in a minute.

I REMEMBER WHAT I WANTED TO SAY NOW!!!!!!!!

On Saturday, I he IMed me and told me he needed some help. You know me, someone actually wants my advice, I'm there. So I go there and guess what. His girlfriend cheated on him. Yup. So he wanted me to figure out what went wrong. So he pulls out his chat logs. I read them and find that she continually talks about how her mom is against the realtionship and how she wishes that she had his undivided attention. Somehow, he didn't see that. So we talk about it and he still wants to be with her. Stunned, I ask him to repeat that. He says he's not that devastated and that he just wants to be with her. Confused, I make sure he really is ok with that and that he isn't in some sort of denial or shock. He says that he really does love her and is ok with it. I guess it happened around Christmas. She lives in Texas, he here in california.

So I tell him that its going to be hard because he has to rebuild the trust. I also tell him that you got to have her be ready to make some changes in the way she is and make sure she keeps her word from now on. And if she don't, he has to let her go because then that means she don't really want to change and that he will be cheated on and have other relationship problems. I also tell him to be sure that she really wants to change too. I then ask him to look within himself and make sure he isn't loving her for the wrong reasons. I say, "make sure you love her because you like who she is, not because you need companionship" and he says he knows. Though I question whether he really heard me. I know him pretty well. I think he's lonely. Everyday, he does the same thing. Wake up, play games, go chat, shower, eat, chat, sleep. Plus, he's on a wheelchair. I wonder if that plays into his willingness to forgive her.

So on Sunday, I go to this Honors Club with Michelle. On the way there, I talk to him again and he wants to write a letter to her. I tell him to talk to the mom and tell her what she wants to hear. I tell him I will help him on that letter. From there, he says he's willing to move there. That is disappointng. I mean, he's the only one I hang with consistantly. I told him I dunno if that's the best idea and he said he thinks that will fix the problem and he could give her that undivided attention. I dunno as a friend and I dunno as someone who thinks his relationship is not ready for that. Did I mention he doesn't like kids and she has 3?! He says he's ok with that too. Sounds out of need but hey, his life I guess.

Like I was saying, went to that honors club, even though I wasn't invited. Yeah, straight out of Seinfeld, I swear. They got new members and Michelle was one and I just walked in after Michelle. Pretended I was part of the club. Contributed ideas and ate. Was nice. They talk about charity and scholarships alot. Its ockward at first, but I just play the role. I was sure someone would ask me a question regarding me being there. Nope. I wish I was a part as I could've if I applied during my best semester. They require a 3.5 to start and must maintain a 3.25 g.p.a I could've been in it if I had joined earlier..... It sounds interesting and wish I was a part of it.

Back to today. Sorry. Kinda went this way and that way with the entry. So I went there today and talked to him a bit. Just talked about things and he talked to Kat *the girlfriend* and they're ok with each other now. I guess she sorta wanted it over because "she couldn't forgive herself". Again, I'm thinking that this could've been a ploy to get out the relationship. I mention this and he says that she's chatted to him daily and called him daily and if she didn't want to be with him, why wouldn't she say so and make all this effort. I guess.... I guess he's willing to move there soon. So a lil after that, Michelle calls and she's pissed I'm not at home. At this point, I was at his house for maybe 15 minutes. So we argue and eventually I just come. She continues to argue for hours. I'm not even sure why she is so mad. I'm still not. I took long to get home because I ate lunch and picked up some tissue paper at the store. I dunno, I just dunno.

I am not missing anything. Seriously. Let me see, she said that I went straight to Alex's and that's what she's mad about. Despite the fact I went just for the second time in a month. I dunno if its just poessiveness or what. I dunno. Sometimes we're doing so great and then she just ruins it by severly overreacting. My biggest flaw is probaly not spending enough quality time with her. I spend a lot of quanity time. Most of my day, I'm around her. Though I really run out of things to say. I mean, the only way I can say something new is if I go around other people or go online or something. I mean, its not like she has a hobby she can tell me about. She stays home and isn't like she tries to initiate conversation with me. I only have so much. I help when asked. I buy her gifts. I say let's go out. No, lets go home instead whenever we have a chance to go out. I just dunno anymore. I just don't know.