She drives me nuts sometimes. At times, we connect really well and seem perfect for each other. At other times, she has these habits that make me want to break up with her. Most of the time I can tolerate whatever, but I'm losing patience. Not sure what to do. "Putting my foot down" just seems to bring out even more rebellion out of her. Anyways, there are other things going on.

Oh yeah, didn't write about how me and Alex's new room mate debated abortion. He is a coordinator for the pro-life movement in the area. Even had a few pamphelets laying around. Wasn't going to initially talk about that, but he started to want to know why I'm not following God and what contradictions I speak about in Christians. So I pointed out that Christians "value" babies, but don't care to support someone who doesn't want one for finacial reasons. Plus, are for the death penalty. So he starts to say its wrong for babies to be killed for convience. I remind him that abortions were allowed because people were still getting abortions, except that mothers were dying too because of having to turn to ill-trained doctors. He goes on about there being more deaths now than before Roe vs Wade. I ask him what he'd want if he was a woman and raped. He skirts the question into saying some guy who was a product of a rape and incense helps starving children. So yeah, was interesting, though friendly.

Me and Michelle got into a lil fight because of that. She was always Pro-choice like me. Then, she changed her position after his lil pamplet. Had some arms and legs of babies and blood. I don't like the idea. I wish it didn't have to happen, but there are two sides of the story. I mean, if Michelle became pregnant, I would want an abortion. There is no way we could afford a kid right now. It'd ruin Michelle's future. She is very bright. If we gave the kid up for adoption, I'd never hear the end of it from my family. Plus, the kids could track you down now. Then all this pain, especially for the unwanted child. I hope it never goes down that road. I want a kid. I would keep it if I had a nice $50,000 job or something. I don't want to have a kid who has to live in a poor family like myself. So yeah............ Plus, then I got to think of what God would do to me/Michelle. *shivers*

In other news, haven't talked to my brother yet. Not really interested in talking to him. He hasn't called me since, so its not urgent. If he asks again, I'll help him get into classes, but I'd keep my eye out for anything shady.

Right now, I feel like chatting to one of my close friends or something. Though that is too risky right now. Then again, don't know that I have "close friends". I have people who know me well and I regard highly, but no one that I can say is like family to me. I blame myself because I must be doing something wrong. People who have close friends make it that way. Though I know a lot about Human behavior and all that, I can't seem to connect right. Anyways, that all