Dear Diary,

Guess what happened after that entry? Obviously not something good as the title says Exploded, right? Well, I get off computer to go eat dinner. My mom is like, "what's wrong?" *obviously my face looked like i was crying* I told her not to worry about me and let me eat. So I start to eat when she asks if I'm ok. I tell her no, then proceed to explain to her why i'm not happy and how alot of it is her fault. She then starts saying, "whatever, there you go again" I then explode. Start yelling REALLY loud and telling that its NOT whatever and how I was tired of her attitude. So next, I start going into the past. She didn't like that, she says," just worry about the future" So I tell her, "lets focus on the future, your future. You got an entry level job, you have no plan on stopping drinking, and no retirement." I also yell about her having her kids have to support. At that point, were both near tears. I leave to my room.

In my room, i find lil sis in there. She is typing book report. I have to help her. So I do. After, go on bed and lay there. My mom comes in and apologizes. She tells me I shouldn't worry so much and should just be happy I'm alive. She then asks for a hug, I give her one. While doing it, felt like just opening up to her and letting it all out, but I didn't. She is not ready. She got enough emotional baggage. Plus, she wouldn't know how to handle it. She can't enough handle herself. Anyways, I feel REALLY bad now. I came off at her just cause i was a lil upset. Usually I can catch myself before doing so. That is all. ~End~