Well, now that I'm alone, I can VEnt. Don't have to worry about anyone commenting or anything. So Tired, tired, FED Up of this stupid life. Wish there was an alternative to death. I wish I could go back to like 16, then I could have saved money then and moved now. GUess I can't live on what ifs. ARGHHHHH. So tired of this freakin' house. This dam third world neighborhood, and it's psychotic ppl. EVErything, even my online buddies, never there when I really need to chat. THIS TOTALLY SUCKS!!!! NOt to mention the pressure I put on myself. Self, why. Why do you do it. Who cares if I go to stinkin' college. IF i don't get a good job, who cares, I'll live. On another front, I can't even get a stinkin' girlfriend. Guess that's a good thing, what girl out there would want to deal with me and my crazy life. Besides, I'm just mediocore. Who wants that. Apparently no one. Why the heck do I feel like tearing up. Why the heck am I feeling so sad. ARRRR. I've never been so darn sappy. Well, better not let this all get to me. BUT IT IS. Maybe praying, a lil crying and sleeping will make things better.

Well, all this was earlier today. Just thought I should share this with you ppl. Why, well, just so you can understand me. Besides, I dont want private entries. I came here to share myself, not to hide my true feelings in private entries. I am feeling a lil better, though I still need an ear to talk to.

Oh, as of right now, while my name is on the right hand side, I'm on *available to chat*, just in case ya care.