Ok, that first comment really cryed to be replyed to. American.... says, "Maybe were more concerned with the bigger picture, like thousands people dying in N.Y." Well, first off, I understand that. However, a lil concern would've been nice. Now if you were so concerened, you wouldn't be on the net reading diaries. NOw don't get me wrong, I hurt for them people and I'm terrified because I live in a major U.S. city. I also realize that not everyone is concerned about lil ol' tinoz and they do got lives. I understand. NOw, I got a lil distressed because NOT ONE person left a comment. What I really wanted was someone to comment and be online. I was rattled by today's events ok.

The next part you say, "if you'd stop whining all the time and playing the victim role, people would listen. Your friends don't show up because you whine too much I’m sorry but grow up already!!!!" Well, I got this to say, one, if you think I'm "playing" the victim role. Let me tell you, I write about my life plain and simple. If I come off as a victim, fine. IF not, oh well. DOn't matter to me. As for me "whining", call it as you will, if you don't like, you can read the other 10,000 plus diaries out there. As for growing up, my friend, I believe I'm way more mature than you, you coward, hiding behind an annonmous alias. Look what you say too, "Fuck people died today, and your whining about this shit???? Really, I can’ t believe it!!!" WOw, don't sound like you care that much. FUCK People died you say. Wow, so much respect.

Now, if there are others that feel the same way he/she does, then go right ahead and tell me. Just tell me in a polite manner. Ok. It hurts when someone comes at me like that.

On to annette. you said,"in light of the loss of life already i am happy your family was safe and rejoiced with you - but am sad however that you seem indifferent to the thousands of lives lost. many ppl prolly didn't comment about your brother and sister because they were still numb from these horrific events that have transpired over the last day." Thank you for the rejoicing. As for me being indifferent, I'm not. I was actually gonna cover my emotions on this whole terrible act. I just got interrrupted. As for people still being numb, I don't know, maybe some were, though I did notice them commenting on more trivial matters elsewhere. BUT i'm Letting it go.

As for my thoughts on the events today, I'm scared. THey attacked the east coast, but nothing out west. One could only hope nothing else happens. I also hurt so bad for the families cause I think, man, they said they're goodbyes without realizing that they'd never say goodbye again. Could ya imagine, saying goodbye to your wife, then finding out she's dead! Just that hurts my heart cause I know so many people got that terrible call. I don't even know if I could handle that call. This whole thing puts things into perspective though. Makes me realize, you never know what you got till its gone. Things were so peaceful. People were generally ok. Now, its all wacky. And is there gonna be a war. My God I hope not. That's all we need, more dead people. I think I need to talk with GOd right now, me and him gots some things to talk about. Goodnight, or day folks. Oh, to those that didn't say anything, don't feel bad, its ok, I let it go. Please remember, at the time I wrote that I was very emotionally upset. The bombings, then missing lil bro and sis, then no concern or anyone to talk to.

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