Big situation on my hands. I need pills. I can’t afford them and doctor visits. My last hope here is the Social Security. Hoping to apply for disability. Though I feel I have a very low shot at actually qualifying, I got to do something. Last time, when I got “free pills” it was because my mom enrolled me when she updated the kids *my siblings* medical. They found out I was over age and promptly discontinued me. I found this out when trying to pick up some more pills. Was upset but not surprised.

Right now, I got Alex’s grandma helping me. Alex told her about my situation and she wants to help me qualify. She knows the system. She got Alex on SSI. *though he is in a wheelchair, not hard to prove he’s disabled* Any help is useful right now. I dunno anyone else who knows how to go about all this.

What also hurts is the fact that I worked recently. That may hurt me. Grrr, this sucks. I just want to be ok. If I keep stalling, soon I may need another surgery. God only knows how the hell I’ll afford that if I don’t get some kind of coverage.

Onto other things. Life still the same basically. Still going to college. Finishing off my English class. If I get an A on that paper I posted about spanking, I will for sure have an A in that class. Only a literary analysis after that. As for Michelle, she’s doing ok, she may manage a B. Speaking of Michelle, lately she’s been fansinated with talking to Lihn. I dunno what it is with Michelle and talking to my ex’s and former likes. I don’t really mind but it’s ockward. Michelle also gets kinda mad when I help her. *I’m a polite person* Anyways, nothing too much more to talk about. Oh wait, I forgot to mention that Michelle has been praying the last few nights. Has asked me if I prayed too. I usually do. She has considered turning to God more. I think I want to go to church this weekend. As for being online, if I could qualify for disability, maybe I could afford to back on. That’d make me happy. I miss chatting. A LOT. Anyways, if you pray, pray for me, if not, which me the best. That is all. ~END~