Well, its been awhile since i wrote. What to say. WHere to start. Ok, gonna start with Saturday. LOL, title has nothing to do with what I"m gonna write, just wanted to put that.

Saturday was nice. Wibur *my lil bro's dad* came. We all went to Chevy's and ate near the river. Was REALLY nice view. Almost everyone was there. My mom, grandma, lil bro and sis, wilbur, his gf. Big bro couldn't make it. Neither could either of my nephews. Still, was really cool there. THe kind of time I used to wish for. Lots of joking, talking, relaxing. Seemed like a family. What was cool too is even the staff was nice. Give lil bro and sis hats for it being their b-day. *almost* Only thing that was a lil off was the fact that Wibur wants to take lil bro to Nicaragua for 3 months. *that is where Wilbur is from* He has the money now. Wants to go at the end of the year. To help Alex be a man and appreciate his orgins. I dunno, I can't stop him cause i'm not Alex's dad. My mom isn't comfortable with the idea either. Still, the bonding there would be nice. I can't say. Anyways, day ends after we buy some clothes and stuff.

Yesterday I went to Alex's house. *THIS ALEX IS FROM SCHOOL, in wheelchair* We played video games, messed with his computer, watched wrestling, ate. Was pretty cool time. Though I didn't feel that comfortable with him telling me about the dispute him and Eliza had. *I think he wanted some new info from me* I confirmed just a few things. Changed subject, played video games after. Eventually I leave.

Today, pretty boring. Though that's ok. Got some stuff for my braces, like wax, floss, hooks, and other stuff i needed. Also, let lil bro and sis ride bike in bike lane as i walked to store with them. THey very much enjoyed that.

As for me, I'm both ok and not. I'm happy. Though it has nothing to do with God or JEsus. SO its temporary. Plus I achieved it the wrong way. Been getting my attention needs met by internet chat and webcaming. Not very healthy. *sigh* Still been thinkin about bad stuff. I feel like i'm getting worse. And speaking of bad, I missed an appointment today. Just remembered. Endocrinologist. Ok, that is all. ~END~ oh, notice the imood. I think its fitting