The icy blow of wind wisked as the scattered clouds loomed over this bright yet chilly day. *ok, i'm trying new ways to start the beginning of entries, seems to go good with bookworm, thought I"d try it out, hope she don't mind* Anyways, I go off to the college, there the usual crew is there minus Jeff. *he's sick* I hang out and talk. Came in a tad on the down side, but they always seem to get me out that mood. *first realization, wow, not everyone has a group that makes them feel better* Then I go off to Economics class. THen a scary realization. Didn't do homework. AGHHHHHHH! Luckily, she lets me get extension till Wednesday. Yeah! FInish class go hang out again

Avina is there, not as sad as I thought she would be. Find out she talked to Jeff. *think that is what made her day* Though she said it probaly was the gummy bears. *probaly both* Though I get down after I seen REbecca talking to some dude. Hope she hasn't got asked out, I wanted to ask her out this weekend. Don't know, she looked really happy. Then again, was kinda far away. I'll know if dude is at bible study Thursday. Eventually I drag my feet to psychology class.

There, we watch video on nothing other than, personality disorders. LOL, too funny. From that video, think my next realization. I may think like certain people with them disorders, but I sure don't act as them. I think cause I have my wits about me. I mean, the people they showed needed some intervention. I think I might just be normal, a person going through alot and needing some comfort. The video was just a big wakeup to me. Ok, how do I explain borderline personality disorder, OH, I know, Fatal Attraction. LOL. Though they usually don't turn to cruelty to animals.

Get home eventually and reply to them comments. After that, I watch some tv then help lil bro and sis. Lil sis is starting to worry me though. She seems to think she is an authority over lil bro. What worries me and concerns me is that she hits him. Not really hits, just like bend arm, or shove. WHERE SHE GET SO VIOLENT? I know no one ever ever hit her. She has been so lucky not to have gone through that. Yet she has it. I put her in place today, she said she'd never do that stuff and she would consult my mom or me when there was a problem. ANyways, go online after eating dinner and chat to ibite. Poor girl, likes guy named alex online. Thing is, doesn't sound so happy. Had long chat actually. Which leads me to now. Here I am, OK! I'm not doing woderful cause that would be lying. Just ok,but hopefully if I can sit here and dedicate my life a lil more to God, then maybe I can go beyone ok emotionally. Oh, want to thank all my NICE commenters for the encouragement. Does alot for me knowing not everyone thinks like them. Take care, all of ya