As the title indicates, I'm gonna write about how my co-workers suck and also I'm gonna write out some of my thoughts on cheating. So with that in mind, gonna start with today.

Woke up this morning to go to work. *after a night of closing, now I had to open, not easy* At work, I talk briefly to Sua, a co-worker. She was nice and had asked me if I talk to paticular people. I say no and tell her my thoery on why I keep to myself. The reason is because most of them just talk about others, complain, and brag. I want no part in that. Though at times I see them laughing and I think about joining in. I some times think about a funny thing or two and think of telling them but then I think that if they don't get all buddy buddy with them that they'll end up talking about me or something. The way I know that is because I hear how to do other people. They are SO FAKE! A paticular co-worker will go up there and talk, and they act all nice to them, but then that person leaves and there they go talking bad about them. Nothing terrible, just enough where it'd bother me. I hate hypocritical people. So what ends up happening as a result is I ofcourse end up alone and bored out of my mind. Stuck with looney customers that ask psychotic questions that make me have less faith in the human potential.

Moving right along. Gonna write about cheating. Scary subject I try not to think about espeically now that I'm with Michelle. Though ofcourse it creeps in my mind as I know how much humans tend to mess up. At first, when I talked to Michelle last night about it, I scared her because I told her that if she cheated on me and hid it and then I had to find out and then she'd mock me, that'd maybe I'd snap. At that time, she got a lil scared. I described in detail what might happened. *she asked* SO after that, she tells me about her "close" friend that has a bad bf and a good one. That her friend is playing both but isn't doing it in a malicous manner. The reason, she loves both of them. She then goes on to describe that despite the way the mean one treats her friend that she still stays with him and worries that he's cheating. She then asks what I think her friend should do. I tell her if her friend has a good bf, why put up with the bad one. She then says that because her friend still loves both. I ofcourse tell her that her friend should stay with the good bf because good guys are hard to find.

After talking a lil more about that, I half-jokingly ask if its her. She says no ofcourse. She then asks if I really think its her. I say that I don't recall her having any close friends. She then says she has her best friend Kelly. I say ok and then she asks what if it is her. I pause for a second and then tell her I wouldn't mind. She was surprised. I told her that as long as she's coming up her, that other bf wouldn't matter to me. She then reiterates that it isn't her. I tell her I know and we move on.

While at work I wondered if she did really cheat in me in person how'd I feel. How'd I react. What would be ok and what wouldn't. Well, the first one is easy to answer, I'd feel REALLY sad and heartbroken. I thought hard as to what I'd actually do. Its hard to say, its dependant on how it happened, what the state of the relationship was, and with who. At worst, I doubt i'd snap.

Another thing I was thinking about was why it even matters if she did cheat on me if she still loved me and stuff. I mean, does she have to belong to me and only love me. Is it greedy? Is it even truely right to ask someone to just pledge total loyalty to yourself? Psychologically it says I should be ok with whatever as long as it makes her happy and doesn't physically hurt me. Religously and socially, it says that I need to make sure she stays loyal and that the punishement is death. *of the relationship that is* So I sit here and wonder what is really right and what is really ok to expect and what not to expect. I know it sounds kinda dumb me asking aloud, but I do think about it. Anyways, that is all.