Sat Jan 29 2005 - Of Me and God
Of Me and God
Hmm, here I am at the college with a lil free time. Feels nice. I can actually read some entries and write one. Plus, I'm always able to read the news. *I'm a news freak* Not sure what to write at the moment. I'm thinking about several things. There is the whole abortion issue. There is the whole war in Iraq thing. My "lovely" relationship. LOL. Thinking about friends and video games. Perpetually wondering about if God is who the christians say he is. I find it odd how I am more sure about Jesus than God. I guess cuz there is more proof he existed/exists. Yeah, I'll talk about that. Always interesting to me.

The thing I'm most curious about is to what degree God intervenes in our life and what way. I mean, did I meet kaliko because God knows that she has helped me believe in him? Did he match me up with Michelle? Does he match others? If God is unchanging, what is the point of prayer? Either it is going to happen or not is what I'm thinking. If God is everywhere, is he in present in atoms and therefore everything is God? Obviously, I'm not God, but according to what I read, I contain him. Sorta pantheistic is the message I'm getting. When I pray and "feel his presence", is that just chemical. If a scientist put a chemical to block that feeling, what does that mean? Has God really "blessed" America? Is this as close to what he wants in heaven? But that can't be, we're so materialistic and secular. I guess I should pray. Ask and I will be given an answer by God; according to the bible. Well, I'm asking. I just have all these contradictory thoughts and feelings about this.

So my conclusion is that there is God, but what exactly is he? Assuming he is genderlized. Is what the bible says THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH and therefore anything that is against it, ABSOLUTE EVIL? Are those who are by western standards "primitive" worshiping false gods and should be converted? What if they don't want to? If indeed the Bible is Truth, we should shove it down their throats like medicine to a 4 year old. Though that just feels wrong. Should the constituion be changed to, no freedom of religon, except to change to a different christian denomination. As for college teaching liberal principles, are they perpatrating the devil's will? Assuming there is a fallen angel out to spite humankind. Yet, can't help but chuckle almost at that idea. I mean, is that his greatest trick was to fool us into not believing he exsists, or is it pure logic and helps us realize its a metaphor? Anyways, I'm taking off. Thanks kaliko and Ally for the comments.

Comments (3)

InspirationalBeings (Legacy)
Hey Tino....Sounds like you have been in 'deep thought' lately....I don't blame ya- I am once in a while also...Anywho, I was unable to get on DD for a while for some reason or another or else I woulda commented sooner....By the way, I had a kit kat the other day in ur honor lol;)

*hugs*
~Chrissy~
MarriedChick (Legacy)
Tino

The best thing the devil has done is convince the world that he doesn't exist. It is true. HE does exist. He is a fallen angel. Never believe that he doesn't exist, because he does! That is his trick. I have seen people been bothered by him. Can you explain what this could be other than the supernatural? I have a friend who lives out of town on a block with out any other houses around... One night she was reading to her little girls, a bible story, and the bedroom window was open. Suddenly she could smell the smell of alcohol... Very strong, they don't drink, but she knows what it smells like. She got her husband to go out and have a look, there was no one there, but she stopped reading to her kids.

It happened again, but this time she was in her bedroom with her window open, the blinds were shut so she couldn't see out. This window has sand around it. She was again, reading her Bible. Again the smell of alcohol was really strong. She sent her husband out to have a look, he took his gun, no footprints anywhere near her window.

What can this be? I feel it is the devil trying to stop her from reading the Bible... He can't come into the house because God is there, but he can stand outside and totally freak her out!!!

Do you have an explanation?
Niels (Unauthenticated) (Legacy)
I think the truth is so much more complex, in fact I think it is essential to think outside the dogmatic cadre of any religion. And I'm not suggesting new age either, because that 'religion' is filled with dogmas as well.

I think the Devil exists, but humans attribute way too much to him. If they desire something, all the sudden it is the devil, while often I think it is nothing but our primal desires.

Humans, unlike animals are conscious beings, just like the Devil and all the angels are. Deep down inside we know right from wrong and therefore we are held accountable for our actions.

It can give a great and exciting rush when you disregard this and act on impulses, following your own selfish, sinful road. This means doing the same thing Satan did and does. He didn't believe in God's right and wrong, didn't care for it and believed more in fulfilling his own desires instead of serving God.
According to the bible many angels followed this course of rebellion and now humans because they became sentient beings and became as Gods face the same choice.
(That's what I think the story about Adam and Eve talks about, else we'd still be like any other animal, and I don't think God's will punish animals for being animals.)
Most major religions such as Islam and Christianity are based on this choice between right and wrong. The only thing that sets Christianity apart is the belief that thanks to Jesus we can be absolved and enter heaven.
And I guess that denying Jesus means denying the Father.

On another note, The fact that God is everywhere, doesn't mean that everything is God. It just means He is Omnipotent and thus watches our every move, wacthing over our shoulders metaphorically speaking.

You see, God is going to judge all of us. And just calling yourself a Christian and attending church services won't change that. We need to decide whether we are going to live for ourself, or we are going to live for Him.

To be honest I'm living for myself most of the time. I'm either thinking about money, girls or getting some other sort of pleasure one way or another. Knowing that I believe in God doesn't make me feel any better about myself at all, just makes me feel like my sins will weigh heavier on my shoulders.

It's hard for me to convey what I think I know, but actually I'm quite certain about it all. It's just that I tend to forget and everything gets shrouded again by my human emotions. Facing them and choosing for God is the true struggle laid out for us.
 
 
 
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