Went to my summer classes for the first time today. As you should know, I'm taking Sexuality and Social problems. The sexuality class was BORING. We bascially got sexual terms and found slang meanings without much discussion as to the relevancy of these terms. So that was a yawn fest. I then go to my Social Problems class. That is the interesting one. We immediately start talking about what a social problem is and how people deal with them. We also go on about the contradictory messages given out by society. Things such as "Look your best" and "Looks aren't important". Then we ended up watching Bowling for Columbine. We were looking at the movie from the perspective that a given social problem is tied to another. We looked at things such as gun control being related to the fact that TV news shows controversial and violent images. Not to mention all the fear induced by the biased news media. It was interesting, though I tire old Micheal Moore quickly. I understand that he wants he opinion heard and only the loud get heard. Still, he uses this sort of in-your-face approach that creats enemies and thus doesn't convince those that he really needs to convince. He also doesn't look at the other side of issues. So the painfully obvious bias gets annoying to me.

Besides that, not too much going on. A smooth day so far. Was reading yahoo news *generally not as biased as other sources* and found this article about mental illness. Read It basically states that "About one in four adults have the symptoms of at least one mental illness every year, and nearly half suffer disorders during their lifetimes" Isn't that interesting. Not surprising then is that when you run into people and a lot time something seems off, you're probaly right. Though most of the illness are just mild versions.

I know that I tend to get down quite a bit. However I think it doesn't generally affect my life. I'm more dissappointed than anything else. I had such idealistic views of what may be out there. I also thought people were mean to me because of who I was. However, the problem is usually with themself. I wish we didn't have the stupid desire to be social creatures, but its hard wired. Since I'm in this dumb individulistic society, I'm bascially stuck with my mate, which is Michelle. No wonder poessiveness runs rampant out there. It seems we can only be ourself around one person and don't want that taken away. Friends are suppose to fulfill that function of connectiveness, but they're too busy. I mean, we're such an "advanced" society, you'd think we'd try to find a way to be less busy and connected. We have a long way to go.

Well that's it I guess. Hopefully the day ends without anything happening. I just want to go home and lay. *I'm at the college* Maybe I'll hop online and see who's there. Though I'm just a lil bitter that lately I've had to make the initiative to talk before someone IM's me. I mean, I just don't understand what is going on with me and conversations. They "seem" to go well. Yet, it feels like I'm just an associate. I guess it might be true and I'm just expecting too much. I'll read some logs and process it in a private entry to see what's really going on. Am I posioning the well? Self-sabatoge? Them? Lack of commonality? By the way, this doesn't apply to ALL my people I chat with, so don't be all overthinking stuff. More than likely we don't chat much. Anyways, I should've ended on a good note. Thank you for just reading this whenever you do. Ignore whatever you just read because I just need to deal with my own need for attention. *that's what my logic says* It also says that I still got to deal with my own insecurites of inadequacy. So there you have it. That's it. Later ALLYgator