Well, after Mandah wondered if I remember who she was, I went pouring through chat logs. Finally I remembered she was Vitamin AB. I used to read her diary a lot and we used to chat alot more than I even thought. We kinda stopped talking to each other after I was angry about my tumor results back in nov of 2001. *I compared chat logs to my diary* I was so angry and ended up taking it out on her, which was VERY illogical and not fair. She got mad and we didn't talk much after that. I was an ass, and for that, I am sorry for that.

So I started to look at other chat logs. For some reason I gravitated towards kaliko's. *realized afterwards that our chat logs were longer than even mines and Michelle's!, 330pgs of wordpad* Michelle has 259 pgs. Jen, your third at 156pgs. I had totally forgot how much we used to chat. Not only did we chat, but we talked about some VERY personal stuff. More personal than I chatted to Michelle about. Which by now Michelle would know more but that didn't happen until real life. I ofcourse couldn't read all 330 pages. Still, I read through alot and remembered a lot more naive me. I think I was a lot more open back then too. I used to ask alot of questions and seek alot of approval. Now I see myself doing the opposite. Still, I have one question.

This could apply to all my friends really, but particularly jen and kaliko. Why have you stuck to my diary and chatting to me? For awhile, I didn't read neither one of your diaries. Yet, you two stuck in there with me for like 4 years now.

I see so many old friends that don't chat or comment to me anymore that I'd like to read. There is good ol' honey, @nnette *aka jane doe*, ally, ray, darunawayrebel, Blueeyes and more recently, niels. Now the question looms, did I not grow? I was more authentic back then? I believed in God more. That it? Something to think about, I'm tired, but do comment and let me know ppl.