The only time I tripped out was in Psyc class. A classmate had asked me how I was. Being that I didn't feel like lying, I told her how anxious and upset I was about what was going on. While talking, my teacher overheard. She came over and looked straight in my eyes and said, " I hope you'll be alright" She then hugged me. Then, I got all emotional and started crying in class. Luckily, I was early for class and there was only 2 students besides me. I then just leave to regain my composure. Usually, I'm alot more in control around people at the college. I generally believe that I can say the most serious things without seeming that it bothers me. Anyways, later on I talked to this other classmate that had went through some brain surgeries. *yes, several* She is on those arm stilts and has difficulty walking. She told me that she had to pursue disability 7 times before she got approved. She then said that she would pray that I turn out ok. I only hope I don't end up like her.

In other news, things has been alright here at home too. Me and my family all went to church. That was nice. The sermons were awesome. It was from a different pastor but he really was good. He spoke about leadership. Though I did disagree with the point that babies need more protection and animals less. However, wasn't surprised he threw in a political point when he did. It was brief enough not to offend. Not that many church goers would be offended I guess. So things are going good in that department.

I found out the church is part of the Assembiles of GOD. I looked up thier beliefs and object to a few. Some include rapture, modern day healings, speaking in tounges and 1000 years of peace on Earth. *humans peaceful for over a year would be a miracle* The rest of the beliefs I generally believe. I think I really got to start searching for my own answers though. I keep relying on others to tell me thier research. I'm so lazy in this. Plus, there is another side of me that says Christians mean well but when they get thier way can be very repressive. If they think Bush is a good man, who is a bad man? *I thought you couldn't order murders in order to be considered good* Maybe I'm just CRAZY like that. * I am a lil crazy you know* Anyways, this nutcase is going to bed. Take care