My birthday is coming. Yup, Friday, the 17th, is my birthday. Believe it or not, I wasn't gonna tell ya'll. Why, well, I've had bad experiences on my birthday. I don't even like thinking about it. So many years I had none of my friends show up, no presnets from no one. YET, when its someone elses birthday, I'm always coming through for them. See, brings up bitterness. THat is why I didn't want to bring it up. I wasn't, but, I was chatting to buggie, and she told me I should post it. Get responses from ppl that care about ya. I guess. NOt sure what a "happy birthday" is gonna do. I know its not gonna be happy. Maybe I'll sleep all that day. That way, when I feel like crying, I could just face my pillow and do it. I don't even want to hold out false hope. NOthing ever happens, tired of having my hopes dashed. 19 years of disappointment is enough. Anyways, that is all, thought I'd tell ya. Think I'm gonna change that imood. I'm not feeling so great right now. Oh, and if you feel I'm sending to many notifies, you know where the unsubscibe button is!