I think the movie has inspired me to want to write my own story. It probaly wouldn't be a romantic novel but something that is very interesting. Though it does seem that romance would get you the most readers. Women tend to read more than men. Then again, this would be more for me than the readers. I don't think I could make something that would get published, much less get an audience. So after this entry, I might go mess around on openfiction and make up some sort of structure. Who knows.

In other news, I'm still looking for work. Things have stayed about the same lately. That's why no entries of late. I'm not sure if I posted that michelle works at UPS and the college now. She works her butt off and I appreciate that. She so doesn't fit the sterotype UPS person. She is a box sorter there. You know, picks up boxes and sorts 'em. DUH. She is 5'1 and 110lbs. One of the few females and only Asian. She doesn't have much free time with me except during the weekends. Though after work we do spend time talking. Especially her. She always has to get stuff off her chest. A few times I didn't want to hear her and she got upset. I found that to be more supportive, I should let her talk as much as she wants. Sometimes I'm closed in. I think about certain things and just want to be left alone. I tend to fantasize alot. I think about futuristic stuff or the news. Its really wierd. All this time I thought I wanted someone there 24/7 to talk to me and all that. Now I get some of that and I just not used to that.

Another thing I wanted to write about which I didn't think I wrote about was my encounter with Jose. That is Alex's roomate, a big time Christian. Man we had a helluva debate. I'm not even sure how it started. I was talking to Alex about something and he jumped in. So we started talking for over an hour. He tried to prove that the bible gave him the right to judge. That backfired on him and then he changed the subject. He then started talking about abortion and that didn't change any opinions. I basically continued to argue that I think its ok that he does what he wants in his life but shouldn't force what he believes on others. At 2 seperate points he strongly implied that there were better people and worse people and that he was "closer to God than I was". I had to remind him that the "Bible" says we're both sinners and thus the same. He also tried to go Southern pastor on me. *what that?* He started to say with some sort of self-rightouesness tone that "You're *me* a secular humanist that thinks we came from apes and that things are only relative". I had to cut him off. Being that one he tried to label me and imply he knew anything about me. He then says there is absolute good and evil. I say there is and isn't. He says what about a murderer. I say, "what about self defense?" He says that's not intentional. I say "What about during war, that's intentional". Whoops, he didn't see that coming. He tried to still say it was ok but then said "what about child molestors". Oh, good point. But I do think that it is always wrong. I point out that I said that there are some absolute good and bad. Child molestors are always wrong. But even abortion isn't always wrong. He was like yeah right. What about if it endangers the mom? So he had to compromise on that. After that, he started to seem really upset. So I start to point out other stuff that is gray and he then says he has to do homework and just shuts his door on me. I go talk to Alex.

5 minutes later he comes out with some paper he wrote in English 1 for his college. He also gives me some paper about judement in the bible. I read. I then analyze it. The paper is about how the founding fathers supposely were creating the constitution the "protect the Church but not the government". He took quotes from Thomas Jefferson and George Washington that had the word God in it essentially. He then said it meant that they would be for school prayer and bibles in all schools. So I underline all his fallacies and then knock on his door. I tell him he had a few errors.

I point out that while his structure isn't that bad, his logic is. For example, I think Washington said, "This country is build on both principles of civil liberty and that of Christianity". He took this to mean that the founders wanted Christianity involved in the government. I point out that it really means that when he says Christian principles, he means that he wants some of the basic concepts like what behaviors constitute crimes. I then point out that he said civil liberty. I ask why he doesn't explain that in his paper. Plus, if they wanted the country to be run by and for Christians, the bible would be the constitution. They could've set it up like that if that is what they so desired. He can't defend that and thus pulls out a book with the constitution and speechs. He points out that they say "let everyone live as they see fit to thier Creator. I then explain that they use the word thier as opposed to using our creator. I remind him that they didn't want to control what religon people worshiped. So then he jumps to the Bible and says that Christians must spread the word and create the kingdom down here. I say that is true. However, you can't force people to follow Christianity. You must get to thier hearts. If you force them to follow Christianity through laws, they will rebel. He says, "Liberals force thier religion of atheism on the country". I say, "All I'm saying is that neither party should be forcing anyone into any type of religon." So it finally ends there. All the while, Alex doesn't say much, despite being right there the whole time. That is typical of him. He is very neutral. I'd say too much so. That apathy is why a small group of people run America. The majority is hardly represented most of the time. I used to be neurtral but if you do, others will control your future. Anyways, I'm going on and on. I'll stop here. Later