Today was a lot calmer than yesterday. Today got up, ate some and then Michelle had her need to go to Arvey. That got me mad at first but we end up going. It was in the very poor part of town, where literally the bums hang out at. So we get her "precious" magazine paper and leave. The whole while me and MIchelle talk about our relationship.

That started last night after my previous entry. She cryed on me and really felt bad. I thought I could turn her down and be done with it, but that didn't happen. I still love her. We just need to set our boundries. She says things will improve when we move. I generally believe her, though I always have this lil belief that says ppl don't really change all that much.

As for other things, went to college for Bio. It was quick, found out the final is soon. I'm a lil nervous about it. Though I know if I study properly, I can ace it like I did the last 3 tests. I just need to keep up a strong A in there so it can offset the C in lab I'm probaly getting. Hopefully, if I have a strong A and strong C, then maybe I can still get an A.

I was suppose to meet with Sarah in theatre arts to practice our lil skit in front of class. *yup, I have to do a skit, this about peter pan* She flaked and then called me when I was at home. Told me "I was at the bookstore where we were suppose to meet at 7" THat is a boldfaced lie. Me and Michelle were there looking for her. NOTHING! However, I'll let it go since we still got a week to practice and she is a nice individual other than that.

Here at home, things started a lil rocky. My mom was mad at me for yesterday coming in while she was doing it. Had to argue for a lil. If it was ANYONE else, she wouldn't say anything. Only cause it's me. Cuz the lil kids aren't suppose to see it and my big bro would break things if she yelled at him. She has so many double standards it's psychotic. When she makes a mistake, "it's my house and your living in it." And other stuff like that.

As for the comment rabbitgoddess gave, your right. However, I found its not as easy to execute that belief as I thought. It's alot more complex. It's like I say sometimes, "The most logical thing my not be the best decison." Its the "best decison" for the future, but I'm still looking out for the right now.

In other news, things aren't going so great for kaliko and my friend neils. Kaliko is going through depression and all kinds of stress. I'm not sure what it is frankly, I hope she finds a way to overcome it. I'm not sure why she isn't listing it and I'd like to know, but she has a right to privacy. As for neils, he broke up with what was once his fiance. Similar story to me and Michelle. Though it wasn't a happy ending. SHe was too much a partier and superficial person. He was too genuine and that conflicted. So he is no longer here in the U.S. and back in Holland. I hope he is ok. He sounds like he lost all reason to live. Hope he doesn't do anything stupid. Life goes on and he'll find the right girl eventually. That's all for now. ~END~