Me and Michelle get up at 9 AM. Keep in mind that I had only really feel asleep at 6AM. So we're up and we got to take a shower. We do and we're there, its very quiet. I'm incredibly sad. I tried to think of all the stuff she did to me but that didn't much matter. My logic couldn't out think it. So I am eventually done and get out the shower. *she ofcourse is still in there* I let out a serious cry and I'm just trying to let go so I'll be ok when she's gone. So yeah, she comes in and gets dressed and stuff. I'm still a lil bit crying while she has been realitvily unphased. I'm like ok, whatever, let's just get this done. So then she wants me to lay down after she is done ironing. By then, I'm finally alright. SO just wants a last hug and I give her a quick hug. She wants more and I give it to her. So she is there and finally starts to cry.

So I'm like, "Oh no you don't, get your stuff packed because we have to go"! So she is just laying there and I get her luggage and start to put her stuff in there. I say, " This isn't going to work alright. Your not going to change, I'm not going to change. I know your not going to change who you are and I can't change who I am. The only way this would work is if you made some serious changes in the way you react to stuff." So then she says, "I am going to change. I will" I'm not buying it and tell her to hurry up. I also tell her that I'm not going through all the pain anymore. So she is just laying there and its annoying the crap out of me. She is telling me she loves me and stuff and I'm telling her if she loved me, she wouldn't act that way toward me. So this kind of stuff keeps going on and finally I say, "Look, I won't toss you out, yet. I'll give you 1 week to prove to me what you mean. If you can't change, then its really over." So she agrees to it and she wants a real hug. I give in.

She then starts to talk to me. She then expects me to talk to her like everything is perfectly fine. She is telling me to "Come out your cage". That's easy for her to say, she isn't the one who got her trust ruined. You see, she said the one thing she knew would definately hurt me. NOt only did she hurt me, but if it were a wound. She cut it wide open, pour some salt on it and put a few worms on it. So yeah..it isn't going to be all fixed that easily. However, as the day went on, I decided not to think about all that and tried to enjoy myself, which I did.

We ended up going to an asian restaruant, meaning barbequed cats were hanging on hooks ready to be served. *jk* Also keep in mind that my eyes were really swollen and I was REALLY tired. So anyways, she wanted to eat some lobster. *who doesn't* So she orders it and magically, its done. And I happened to love it. Kinda crazy cuz last time I ate at some other asian place, it was just ok. I guess cuz they won some kinda of food championships. Anyways, after that, we eat some ice cream and it is good.

The day basically ends after that. Here I am trying to get rid of this stuffed nose. I used this crazy asian liquid, composed entirely of domestic animals, it was suppose to make things better. Instead, it burned like nothing I ever experienced. It didn't do crap but leave burnt feeling on my skin. Now, I took some Sudafed, I should've took that in the first place. *forget we had it* RIght now, I'm horribly tired. My eyes have been watery and dry on and off the whole day.

I wanted to thank everyone for their comments. It's nice to know there are others out there somewhere reading what I type and cares. And kaliko, I'll respond to that last comment a lil later. Thanks. Later...