Today started with me waking up early to get braces put on. I get dressed, get bus money and go. I wait for a lil while, and finally get called. I go on the chair and lay back. I open mouth and as the assistant begins to put some of the brackets on, she asks about my brushing. *no big deal right?* Next, she says, 'You know what, you didn't brush today" She leaves and gets some listerine and a toothbrush. She then asks if i know how to brush my teeth. I'm like, yeah duh. She then asks me to demostrate in mirror. I do. SO SO EMBARASSING! She then sends me to bathroom to go brush. I go back feeling so embarrassed. They then put all the stuff on. Though they add something extra. TERRIBLE i say. An overbite adjuster thingy. Goes on the roof of my gums, right behind my top teeth. So they are done and I try to thank you. I CAN"T!!!! Well i can, but I sound like i have a speech impediment. Thank you sounds like Dhank OU! I can't pronouce S's, T's, C's,x's or Z's. Especially z's. I eventually leave feeling like a retard.

I call Jeff from there so I can go over and pick up my wallet. *left it there* Says yeah. I go on bus. They then pick me up from stop. I'm not too happy. Its noticable. They were all laughing cause this lil prank they tried. THey had got my wallet and took out my money and put in I owe you slips inside. Thomas was saying, Just tell them its from us. :) Though i didn't laugh. Was sad. Day turned out decent though. Got to JEff's.

At his place, we play dominos *I SPANK THEM* eat, then go swimming. Was going good. I was actually pretty happy till I decided i wanted to go to youth group. Jeff for some reason didn't want me going. I said," hey, I got a ride from my mom later, I can stay for youth group." Jeff is like "We're gonna drop you off at the bus station" I'm like WHAT! So we argue. Thomas eventually asks Jeff if he really wants me to go. Jeff is like, I don't care if he goes or not. We eventually get dropped off at youth group.

I'm there mad at him, say hi to a few, then walk around. Everyone is in thier groups. Some say hi, but continue to talk in thier groups or just leave. I eventually go down street for some ice cream. Come back and Jeff is there. He is on his bass jamming away. Everyone is having good time. I feel like odd man out. After some more failed attempts at hanging out, I leave home on bus.

Here at home I go to sleep. My mom can tell I'm mad/sad. I think she knew cause she was like, what's wrong, why you back, i thought you were going to youth group. I told her not to worry about it. I go to room and sleep. Wake up and find its too late for dinner. I argue with my mom. After that, i realized JEff called. I call him.

On phone, he asks for forgivness, i give it to him. Though it still hurts the fact that he didn't want me to go. I know he's not against me, just he was thinking i was gonna do something crazy. *i told him i was gonna mess with them a few times over phone* So he was semi-justified for what he said, but I guess i was already sad to begin with. ANyways, he says he's gonna pray for me. That's nice of him.

I get off phone and sleep some more. Wake up in middle of night, go on net. Not good. Doing things I shouldn't. Still not completely over the wanting to meet a bad girl thing. Anyways, that is all, thank you for reading.