Well, I decided to finally change my DD listing. I will no longer be under religion. I will now be found under anything and everything. My title will no longer be Struggles of a Christian, it will be My Inner Soul.

The reason for the change is complex. Basically, I feel that doesn't represent me or my diary anymore. I have got away from christiany and more into myself and the stuff that happens to me. I think it may change back if my life becomes spiritual again. Right now, I don't think I am there.

I guess the deciding factor is weird and is classic me. The thing is that I saw the comments on kaliko's diary and it made me think about what people's impression of my diary was. Am I really a struggling "christian". I haven't went to church in months. I hardly pray at night. If I die right now, I am afraid I will burn in hell. Not to mention I have seriously questioned the very exsistance of the Christian God. So yeah.......

I feel oddly sad, I have changed for the worst. So much for the diary giving me some kind of growth in character. Its also ironic to me that exactly 3 years ago today, I started this with such a different concept and drive in my life. I was recovering from my brain tumor and was very positive about people. Now, I feel lots of distance. I guess that's due to all the lost friends. First I was too giving and vulnurahble. Then I became selfish and distant. Its hard for me to find a nice middle. Besides Michelle, I only care deeply about one other person. However, that person I is online and we don't talk as much as we should. *granted, they're busy and have their own lives, so its ok* Actually, there are a couple others, but I'm trying to keep this short. Anyways, I'm getting really offtrack.

Not sure what to do about the design. Personally, I like the colors. Though sadly, it doesn't reflect my life. Its something I might or might not tinker with. Damn, I'm feeling sad. Not quite sure what it is. It'll fade. That's all. Take care text people.