Right now I'm plenty happy. Spirtually and just otherwise. THings are actually "turning around" All in one fell swoop too. Big bro and his girlfriend are gonna pay more rent, mom gots a new job, I think I found God. I'm scared it won't continue. I know, can't think like that *stay positive* but the thoughts creep in my head. As long as things continue to improve for a while, then I can handle when they don't. If something bad was to happen, I'm not sure I could "stay" happy. I "Hope" I can.