Alot that I have not put. Though in retrospect, maybe for the better, just a bunch of emotional mumbo jumbo. More highs and lows. Typical. Something I have been trying to cope with. Only difference is now I have Michelle in my life and those ups and downs effect her too.

What to put, hummm. Well, my time at DMV is almost up. Both me and Michelle have applyed for other higher paying jobs. Hopefully, we get them. It'd really help. Though if I did, I'm not sure I'd write it down. I have a feeling my diary has been compromised. *I think my mom and/or vanessa has read it* The reason I wouldn't put it is because it'd obviously put a bigger finacial burden on both of us if my mom were to know how much we get. It's kinda sad, but that's how my mom is. It isn't that she doesn't neccesarily need it, just I have to look out for myself so I can move up in this world. *not looking to end up like her*

As for school, doing decent in my classes. I believe 2 A's and 2 B's. Hopefully I can get straight A's. Doubtful in my history class but oh well. As for Michelle, she is doing about the same. She has edged me on a test and a paper by 1 point. To be honest, it bothered me. Previous to all the other stuff, I had edged her out. *seems were in competition* Even though she is from a better college than I am in, I still feel I am smarter than her. Even she agrees. Thing is, she tries alot harder than me( but last min study). I dunno, i'm kinda lackadasical about studying. That just me.

As for my inner self, it hasn't been much better. What can I say, I'm doing good. Honestly. I finally feel like things may actually turn out alright. The only thing I've really worried about is my spirtual life. Its went down, and for now, I haven't made time in my life for that.

Friends, they've been non-exsistent in my life. Not that some haven't tried to be apart of it. *most notably, Alex* Like I've stated before, no time. I have only had time for work, school and michelle. Trying to achieve some stuff in my life. Besides, isn't like most of my friends really care. They just like my company. Thier fakeness helps drive me away from them. Only real ones are Ray, Alex and maybe Eliza. I dunno about her, she doesn't exactly get along with Michelle.

Well, that's my life at the moment. Other stuff is occuring too though. One thing is my struggle to find out how the hell i'm gonna get medical coverage for my tumor. Disablity is my only shot at having it for free. Though I feel it will affect my ability to get a job. Other option would be to pay for some lame coverage at rates starting above $100 a month. *OUCH!* Sure in the heck wouldn't do that. I'd rather die than pay money out my pocket at this point. I'm already low on cash. Michelle says money ain't worth my life, but thing is, I don't want to be alive if I will always be poor. I can't take it anymore. Also, family stuff. They don't really like us. Not that they ever did, but now more so. They expect us to cook, clean and talk regularly. We can hardly handle work, school, then studying. Oh, not to mention money. Anyways, I'm done. Pray for me if you do that thing. Thanks in advance ~END~