Is odd how when I chat to Nicole i feel this closeness to her. ITs like we have this bond too. Maybe something more than Rebecca. BUT SHE IS ONLY ONLINE!!! COuld be a guy I'm chatting to. Could be some fat wilderbeast. Notihng wrong with a lil fat ofcourse, but she could be 300 lbs. LOL! I got to distance myself cause I'm starting to like her. Why the hell? Is stupid, she lives 100's of miles away. 100's!!!! Is cool though how we can chat for hours. Usally most conversations fizzle after 20 mins. Is amazing how she can pluck things out of me too, like that secret. Though this entry is safe. *hope* hehehehehe

Why DO I TRUST HER??!!! must think, ain't like she told me stuff. first time actually. One thing, told her many things. But why? Haven't told others stuff. I've known them longer like I told her. Maybe she's just manipulative. Hmmmmm, nah. She don't act like it. Then again, who acts manipulative? YOu just do it. I don't know, all I know is this is stupid feeling i must stop. Got to find a way to distance self from her. THis isn't healthy. Will only lead to 2 lonely hearts anyways. She is too far! Ain't like I'm going down there. Isn't enough in a online relationship to persue. She can't give me the kind of cuddling I need. THe kisses i want. just conversation via black text. THAT"S IT! gee, wish i knew someone like her offline that lived round here. Well, i'm tired, maybe later diary.