I should've known that the devil would come full force at me today. I guess I'm still young. Well, it didn't happen at first, which is probaly why it worked for awhile. Let me explain.

Ok, I went to my classess then went to go hangout. Was ok. Talked abit, then Alex *guy in wheelchair* asked me if I wanted to go to the pizza place with him. I told him I didn't have any money. That didn't matter. SO we go there. He was telling me about how Eliza has been dissing him lately. I gave him some advice and we ate. After about an hour, we go back.

I go and sit in group. Things still going ok. I see Jeff. He sees me. *we run slowly into each other's arms, LOL, JK* He is VERY late, missed his classes. He is also hungry. He wants to eat. He also wants me to treat. I tell him I ate and he still asks again. I tell him despite me not wanting to, I will anyways. So we go.

We eat the ice cream and the day seems pretty cool. So we get back on campus and I don't want to hang with the group. I say, lets just go and talk. He says he wants to hang out. I say, I do things all the time I don't wanna do for you *such as make him 2 greatest hits cd of Pink Floyd* He says he wants to go there. I say, just do this for me, I want to talk privately. He isn't having it, says I'm playing games and I'm mad. So he goes there. I go in listen to my walkman alone. No more than 5 minutes go by and Donald shows up. Tells me that Jeff is there saying that we got into an argument. Atfirst I ignore situation, then I decide to go defend myself.

He's there talking to Eliza about what happened. I say my side. She sides with me. From there, I tell him that the friendship is gonna change. No more special treatment. He stays there and wants to talk to them.

SO I go on my bus. I'm on it feeling Very angry and just upset. I'm listening to Creed sing "one last breath" and I was feeling the music. *is not the brightest song in the world, is about him being six feet from the edge, anyways* So I'm on the bus thinking again about saying mean things to him. I get home and realize what I'm doing. I think, wait a minute, all this stuff got me offtrack with my thoughts about GOD. Me and Jeff were gonna do our own bible study. Now I'm angry at the one semi-religous friend I got. Thus, I conclude that it's the devil's work. I turn to God and just pray he figures it out. *I wasn't gonna call Jeff cause he told me, "Tino, you always call and apologize, I know you can't resist"* SO I didn't want to give in to that. Besides, I didn't do anything wrong. I felt stuck. YEt, later Jeff called. He apologized.

I'm glad he called. Now that I'm aware of attacks, as is jeff, we can stop it before it starts. Or atleast realize what's going on before stuff escalates. Would love to expand on this, but I got to go. GRRRRR, will update later.