I think this is the first time I didn't write on my birthday. It was on the 17th. It started out REALLY crappy cuz Michelle didn't have anything planned and I'm generally down on myself on that day cuz i have no friends or anything that really care about it. *nor have I ever* Though later on I decided to go to this restauant called Katana. Its a japanese restaurant that cooks food at your table. I have it on my camcorder. Though I have yet to figure out how to upload the video. *so much for my tech saviness* I tried using the USB to the computer but that only detected the SD card. *the area where u store picture* My video card has a S-VIDEO thingy, so I'm gonna try to do that, but I still really don't know what to do. I go to the point of where the video will play on the computer, but it won't save to it or right click it.

Talked to Ray recently. He's always fun to talk to. He didn't get the prision guard position. He failed the personality test. It said he didn't have leadership ability and the ability to cope with stress. Basically, it means they think he's too introverted and is neurotic. Well, I dunno if he's neurotic, but I know that christian people tend to be less prideful and confident on those tests, so maybe that's what happened there. Then again, those sneaky lil tests may be picking something that he thinks he's hiding well. Only he would know for sure.

We also talked about more christian stuff. It was only a matter of time before we were in the bible. We were talking about how God is suppose to sort out all these people from different religions. He showed me something in Romans 2 about God having no partiallity to one group or another. That he only judges based on thier own conscience. Though I kinda seen that as a cop out in that if that was taken to heart, then whatever you want to believe is therefore ok and thus, why be a christian?

Moreover, he brought up "proof" that prophecy is coming true. He asks how its possible that some 2000 year old book can fortell what is happening now. Besides me pointing out that the specifics are vague, I mentioned that the followers of Nostradamus say the same thing. HOwever, he cited some website as saying that only 33% of his predictions came true. THough I said that ofcourse he would take that number and run with it, but I"m sure his followers don't listen to that. ANd if the same group said only 70% of bible prophecy came true, then he wouldn't listen to it in that people only look to further their own beliefs. He then says, "well you got to admit, the world is getting worse" I say, "that is one of the weakest arguments. I mean, did you ever read your history book." He says, "what about global warming and all these terrible disaters; worse than ever" I say, "I don't know what worse than ever you refer to. You know anything about the black plague. 1/3 died. Could you imagine if anything close to that amount died now. You know how "prophets" and preachers would jump on that to say how that is further proof of the end to come. Or what about the Native Americans, conservative estimates are at 90% of them dead." He then tries to intreprete this in a way in which I forgot, but wasn't the way he started in that he initially said it was proof of the end but now saying something about how life is gonna get worse.

I wanted to talk more but he was tired and said he had to sleep on it. I asked if he wanted to hang out and he said he could in the evenening. That'd he'd call and let me know. Though he never did.......

He could've forgot. Or maybe I'm not that important to him. I wouldn't blame him. I kinda severed things. I mean, if he really wanted to, he would've contacted me saying he could or couldn't. I mean, if he had to call me to get his lottery winnings, would he have forgot???

In the end, I think I'm too disagreeable. I'm too much in the middle. I noticed that people liked decisive strong characters. I think that is what people liked in Bush. He may've been wrong, but damnit, he stuck to his beliefs. And I think it's that sort of polorizing personality that people like. I mean, I don't think its a conincidence that the most popular kids are so one way while the unpopular kids are so ok with whatever. People like to categorize people one way or the other. Oh, that's the super-christian. That's the nerd. That's the athesist. You see it ALL the time in movies. It actually gets annoying to me that people are played this way. But its made for mass appeal, so they must. The white guy with classes is always a techno nerd that is inept with women. The asian girl is either some exotic whore or this completely submissive altruist who has only pure thoughts.

Ok, I have a tendancy to overexplain myself. That is what Michelle says alot. I make my point, then for 10 minutes, I continue with addtional similiar analogies. If you ever meet me, you'll see. You'll be like, yeah, I get it. And then I will just continue to say more about it. And you'll like, OMG, this guy just keeps going, what am I going to have for dinner. Meanwhile, you'll just smile and nod. Ok, that is all for the moment because Michelle wants my attention.