Well once again i'm here playing catch-up. Its a lil frustrating because I been wanting to write daily but I been forgetting. Anyways, without further adue, here's my entry.
I woke up on thanksgiving to find out that Jesse was at my door. I was shocked but I go and walk outside to talk to her. *didn't bring her inside because I was embarassed of the inside* So I go out there and find she was riding around and decided to come by. She had an idea of where I lived when I walked her home. So anyways, we talk about nothing really. She just was checking on me and seeing if I was ok. I liked it but then I decided just to ignore her a bit and end the conversation as soon as possible. *don't want to start to like her or something, besides I already got someone*
After that I lay in my bed awhile till my lil brother wants to hang out. We do for awhile then I go here on DD and view a few diaires till its time to eat. I eat and in typical Z***** fashion the whole family ate at the couch. It was good. I did feel grateful. Though a lil guilty because I felt like I should've bought the turkey and pie. Nonetheless I ate till I was full. We then all watch some talk shows. Another typical family event. LOL. I eventually get bored and try to call Michelle. She isn't at the dorms though, she's at home. At that moment I had forgot she was there so I just waited for her to call.
Later in the evening, my big brother rented Reign of Fire. He wanted everyone to go see it on his tv. Problem was that by the time he was ready for everyone to see it, me, my lil bro and my newphew were on the computer playing video games. He *gasp* got hurt and yelled. I went in later for a lil while and apologized. I don't think he accepted it because he wanted the whole family to see the movie. So that's that.
I then talk to Michelle. We talk about her good aspects and bad ones. While I don't want to go too much into detail, I will list what we determined. Her good aspects being that she's open, non-judgemental and is flexable. Her bad aspects being she's still irresponsible, doesn't have natural niceness and she has some selfishness. The lack on natural niceness bothered me a bit but I'm ok with her not having it right now. She isn't perfect. *no one is ofcourse* We then talk about my good and bad aspects. My niceness being both a good and bad aspect. *how is it bad you may be thinking* The way it can be bad is that she sees that people take advantage. Other good aspects is me being responsible and something else. I forgot, but I'm sure she'll remind. I forgot the rest but I will have her remind me. :) After the conversation I then go to sleep.
I wake up the next morning and talk on the phone to her. It felt really nice. I love talking to her, it's so comforting. I however have to go to work.
On the way to work I remember today was suppose to be the busiest day shopping. The way I remember is I see all the traffic. I dread going in the store, though I have to go in. I get in and look around. It's REALLY busy. Though I'd say the 1 day sale we had like a week ago had just a few more people. Maybe it was more busy though because we had more cashiers. *10 plus me in front. 8 in back. 4 to 6 upstairs* So anyways, I stayed occupied. Was bored towards the end of the night but overall happy. I think the mocha with 2 shots of expresso really helped. LOL. Eventually the day is over and I'm happy. I get home and eat pizza!
After eating I then check email. While checking email Michelle calls. *YAY* We start to talk. We have begun seriously planning when she was gonna come here. It is roughly set to take place in the afternoon, December 14th. The airfare being slightly over $100 after all taxes. I will be paying for it. She said she'd pay me back but I declined to accept. *my treat* So basically we have that set and she finally thinks she has a ride to the airport. As I looked at airline websites, I was very happy nervous. It's just 2 weeks away. Wow, that's really close. Life will be different with her here. We both believe for the better. If not, still, this is the collective decision and we will live with whatever consequence.
Speaking of the worst part. Me and her have talked about the way we argue. The way I do it is try to avoid getting mad by getting some distance, such as walking off or breathing then discussing. She has a more ruff version, she says she cusses when she argues and does not like the word sorry. I believe that will make it difficult. She does the two things that will trigger big arguments. I really hate when someone doesn't accept my apology. What I also kinda hate is the fact she won't tell me how to stop the argument. I asked her what I should do in order to try to stop any given argument and she won't tell me. I know what I want, an apology and promise to try not to offend again. Maybe makeup for given mistake depending on how big it is.
Moving on. I'm generally happy. Though I want to get closer to God. I miss going to church and all the good stuff. I haven't even participated in the searching scripture thingy that I signed up for. That's bad of me. I regret not doing more. I always intend on doing something when I see a new email from someone in that group. I just don't. *SIGH* I need to pray about that. That is all. ~END~