Today started OH SO boring. Sunday's are typically like that. I tried to email Danielle *from the group at school* and she didn't reply. I got on to chat and seen Candace. It was an ok chat, nothing that special, just us catching up on each other. Chatted with NIELsomethingoranother alot. A reader of this diary, he is cool. He kinda reminds me of my friend Donald. Has alot to say once you know him. The "quiet till you know them good" type. My personal favorite actually, cause yours truely was once like that. :)
Day dragged on for awhile as i chatted to my friend Spencer and browsed the internet. Got off the net for awhile and took a shower. Kinda was mad at myself for dissing Eliza when she really liked me. *read the next day entry after "4 girls, who to pick"* Anyways, I got out and layed on my bed. I ended up getting out to talk to my lil sis after I tripped out on my tumor and stuff.
At first, my lil sister didn't want to talk to me. She wanted to go in the living room. I persisted though. I told her that I REALLY wanted to talk to her and please don't diss me. SO we went in my room and talked. Lots of stuff came up. I started though. SHe didn't know where to start. SO I told her detail about Eliza and how I felt and stuff. Also told her why i'm mad at Jeff. What he said to Ray. After that, she felt comfortable and told me about some of her friends and how she felt about them having boyfriends and stuff. She is INCREDIBLY smart. I couldn't have taught her better. She realizes what guys want at that age and what love is. Felt so nice talking to her. Felt ockward talking to her like she was my age at first, but after awhile, I just did. Was a very nice bonding . I helped her after on some homework and then she told me something that has me looking for a way to intervene. Her friend was molested by a step-brother of hers. The guy got locked up and stuff but now he may get out soon and the mom said that she's gonna let him live back at the house. If her friend don't like it, she's suppose to move. My lil sis' friend is only 12! I told my lil sis that her friend needs a restraining order and needs to go to the school. SHe said the cops know and not sure if the school does. Well, I'm gonna try to persuade my lil sis to tell her friend to go to the school. If that don't work, I will. That lil girl does not need to live with someone that molested her!!! ANyways, had to put my lil sis to sleep after that cause was her bed time.
After all that, came on to put this entry in when Jeff called. He is happy-go-lucky. He aplogizes for coming at me wrong yesterday and for not listening. :) He was in the wrong, though I do admit, I did come off as harsh. I have a bad habit of doing that. Anyways, he wants to hangout tomorrow and stuff. MAYBE. We'll see.
On a completly different subject, for some reason I been feeling like changing my style. Right now I dress in mostly flannel button ups with jeans or khakis. Though I don't know what style i want. My lil sis does have black nail polish. *GOTH TIME, lol* While the style interests me for some odd reason, I don't see myself actually doing it. I guess I want to see people's reactions. I'm weird like that. I kinda wish I could be different people sometimes. Like one day i'm me, another day I'm a teacher, next day I'm some rich girl. LOL, funny. Or poor one. Or rich guy. Just different lives. I want to live a day in someone elses shoes. Even if it is worse *like being an overweight single bus driver*. Just to do it. Then once i'm done, be me again. Wonder if i'd see life different. Dunno. I'm gonna try different styles eventually though just to see the different treatment. Maybe be a rocker one day, a preppy the next. ANyways, I'm done. END