Chat conversation after previous entry. I let alot be known. Be forewarned, there is cussing.

Mischief: how are you did you get dinner
Tino: I'm so-so, got dinner
Tino: was good
Mischief: what
Tino: what do you mean what?
Mischief: what did you eat
Tino: oh, steak and refried beans
Mischief: you cook or you ur mom
Tino: my mom said i needed something good to cheer me up
Tino: my mom
Mischief: COOL
Mischief: you sad
Tino: yeah
Mischief: don't be sad things could be a lot wose
Mischief: like
Mischief: not having a ride :D just playing
Tino: :|
Mischief: ahy
Mischief: oops why
Tino: if you must know, i'll tell you
Mischief: yes please do
Tino: fine
Mischief: (H)
Mischief: well
Tino: well, yesterday when you and nick were hanging out, i just start thinking about not having a relationship of my own, so then I started to think about that, then
Tino: I started trippin on tumor
Tino: had a headache
Tino: and was mad cause it has slowed my growth down
Tino: can't even get someone my age cause I look young
Tino: and I can't get anyone cause i have nothing to offer
Tino: and my mom is unemployed
Tino: I'm gonna have to work
Tino: Ricky is getting on my nerves
Tino: I'm running out of money
Tino: School is sucking
Tino: Just alot of things
Mischief: I said that about Nick Because I needed to tell someone dosen't mean I want him too
Mischief: Just thinking bout it
Tino: its not that
Mischief: don't want to fuck up friends
Tino: ok, that's all good
Tino: I'm saying, for me, I got to start thinking about what i want to do
Tino: not sure what that is even gonna be
Mischief: Just Do your school and get that money
Tino: i been doing that
Tino: all my life
Tino: go to school
Tino: get money
Tino: etc
Mischief: that's your way out the getto
Tino: never get to do anything for me
Tino: even if i had the money, i'd probaly not move out
Mischief: pay noe play later
Tino: lil bro and sis need me
Mischief: oops now
Tino: I don't have later
Mischief: how you know
Tino: Fucken tumor is probaly gonna end my life
Mischief: no
Tino: NO!!
Tino: read about tumors
Tino: they killl people
Tino: all the time
Mischief: don't think like
Mischief: that
Tino: Its true
Tino: why lie to myself
Mischief: ok may be but
Mischief: the tec. of today can save you
Mischief: TEC.
Tino: hasn't yet
Tino: for all its magical power
Mischief: BUT IT WILL
Tino: I still have the shit
Mischief: well I have my shit wrong with me too but I won't die so I can't relate
Tino: potential for others is high too
Mischief: ?
Tino: yes, when they find one
Tino: usually others grow
Tino: cause brain keeps making them
Tino: and if one is maligant
Tino: I'll be termianl
Tino: *terminal
Tino: So i feel like I need to start thinking about me
Tino: instead of long ass plan to get out of ghetto
Mischief: well think about your self and others to I do it all the time
Tino: sounds good, though I've done that all my life and has done nothing for me
Tino: so much for karma
Mischief: :(
Tino: Well, that is what was on my minde
Tino: *mind
Tino: and if i told you in person'
Tino: I'd probaly break down
Tino: I don't feel comfortable crying around you
Mischief: wel sometime people need to break down
Mischief: Just as long as you have a caring friend
Tino: that wouldn't be you, no offense, but how is it you been caring
Tino: you don't ask how my tumor is, or really anything
Tino: you talk about what you got to do
Tino: which is ok
Tino: I respect that
Tino: I don't expect you to do more
Mischief: wel how you view me is how you view me I'm still your friend
Tino: not saying your not a friend
Tino: your a good friend to me
Tino: but good enough to cry to, not yet
Mischief: and your are to me and I'm not saying I'm not your friend Just reasureing
Mischief: understud
Tino: k
Mischief: you feel better
Tino: no
Tino: problems still there
Mischief: it will get better
Mischief: I hope for you
Tino: thanks
Mischief: I'm chating with yumi and you
Tino: same
Tino: she's engaged
Mischief: did she tell you
Mischief: o
Mischief: she did
Mischief: it's cutie hu
Tino: yeah
Tino: never thought when i first met her that she'd be engaged before me
Tino: I guess you can't predict that
Mischief: :P
Tino: you or april is next
Mischief: no April
Mischief: well
Mischief: ok maybe me but not for a while
Tino: i think you find that one cutie that wants you to have his kid
Tino: and from there
Tino: you marry
Mischief: hopefully
Mischief: you will to
Tino: nice thought, but realistically, will take 10 years
Tino: if i get that far
Mischief: por que
Tino: cause right now, I don't have the looks, material things, or anything that would really attract anyone
Mischief: you
Tino: I'm honest with myself
Mischief: what about your personality your cool to kick it
Tino: that's it, just cool to kick it with, not that one awesome personality everyone looks for
Tino: I'm not that funny, quite boring, not that many stories
Mischief: N-E-WAYS your funny Just your own type of funny like me
Tino: there is either funny or not, and when someone thinks tino, funny is not the word to relate to me
Tino: when someone thinks Alicia
Tino: then
Tino: yeah
Mischief: bullshit
Mischief: some people think
Mischief: Eliza bitch
Mischief: or
Mischief: uuuuu I don't like her
Mischief: sometimes funny
Tino: You have mostly good reviews, but that is another thing
Mischief: really?
Tino: yeah
Tino: notice how you are the person everyone looks forward to coming
Tino: everyone looks for you
Tino: all the time
Mischief: people do that to you too
Tino: only person that looked for me was psychotic jeff
Mischief: I look for you
Mischief: I'm not psychotic ether
Mischief: not saying
Tino: no?
Tino: ;)
Mischief: your calling me that
Tino: jk
Mischief: :$
Tino: anyways, point being, all the things I got to offer isn't enough
Tino: good enough for friends
Tino: not enough for girlfriends
Tino: ironic thing is by the time i do have enough, I probaly will be bitter or something
Mischief: not if you don't let your self get like that
Tino: its like, when i do have my body, things, better face/teeth, then they will want me
Tino: fuck that
Tino: They can go to hell for all i care by then
Mischief: sound like your already bitter
Mischief: :D
Mischief: jk
Tino: I guess you could kinda say that
Tino: cause I see how people are
Tino: i mean fuck, lets be honest, you don't have your body, most of the guys don't give you the time of day
Mischief: true
Tino: Same with girls
Mischief: unles
Mischief: there horny
Tino: horny and materisitc
Tino: so if I look like i can make them cum and i have shit
Tino: then I'm tight
Mischief: eighter or I get layed
Tino: if not, then i get passed on
Mischief: :) jk
Tino: so that is why i have my cynisim
Tino: however you spell it
Tino: cynicism
Mischief: meaning
Mischief: not
Mischief: clear to me
Tino: its a pessimistic point of view
Tino: but in a clever thoughtful way
Mischief: o
Mischief: oo
Tino: not sure whatelse to say really
Mischief: me nither I get sleeply